What's Keeping You Alive?

[Jade-]

My friends on this forum.....you guys are keeping me alive. Thanks.

 

[James B.]

Everyone here keeps me alive. And inspires me to heal. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.

 

[Iam]

Knowing I have to feed my horses, dogs and cats ;o)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Those few moments were I feel happy. Genuinely happy. Were I am laughing because its funny and good, not uncomfortable. It's like a light of hope...that maybe life is good. To know that maybe one day I could help someone else, that maybe living and learning is a good thing.

Maybe...

 

[Elizabeth]

I have different reasons on different days. But the healing process is keeping me alive ultimately. I will not leave suicide as a legacy for my sons.

 

[Jade-]

At the moment, dissociating is keeping me alive.

I almost got fired from my job today. But.....dissociation to the rescue.......I don't even care now.

 

[James B.]

I've been fired from a few jobs. Sorry to hear about that, Jadebear. I know it meant a lot to you. All I can say is, there will be others.

 

[Jade-]

Thanks James, but I "almost" got fired. They're giving me another chance. It was just something so stupid.....but the stupid little things are starting to add up. I'm thinking about taking time off work so that I don't end up fired.

 

[James B.]

Oh...sorry. Good to hear! I am kind of out of it, maybe more than I realize.

 

[Unhinged]

This thread is keeping me alive right now. Thank you so much for creating it.

Drawing.
The fact I don't think I have enough pills left to get the job done.
I hate it when my husband cries; I hate it even more if it's my fault.
There is no way they would get my hair and makeup right, we won't even discuss a dress.
No one would come. No way to know if they do anyways.
Pillows.

 

[Jade-]

Music.....I spend a good majority of my down time listening to it, downloading it and burning cd's. I especially like eminem. I started listening to him quite a few years ago. I can feel his struggles in his songs and really relate. He's blunt and not afraid to be who he is, and tell it like it is. Whether he's struggling with addiction, his identity, depression, relationships or just being a dick, he channels it onto his music. And the fact that my oldest son could be his twin since they look so much alike, makes listening to him comforting.

I would be so lost without music....

 

[Jade-]

This thread is keeping me alive right now. Thank you so much for creating it.

I'm glad this thread is helping you Unhinged. When I started it, I was feeling very suicidal. It actually did keep me alive.

Sometimes we need to find even the smallest of things that are positive, no matter how hard it is to do or no matter how hard we have to think to come up with something. There's always at least one thing that's good, we just have a hard time seeing it.