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Good session today. This youngest, most powerless part IS my musician. It's all she can access and do something with internally (sounds and vibrations). So I'm taking her own tools and giving them back in better doses so she can unfreeze...and maybe be integrated into my deeper musician self. Something like that. But it feels really hopeful.
My therapist encouraged me to use my low tuning fork to help down-regulate and tolerate stuff. So I'm feeling where this young self is at, but helping her (with her own tools) as an adult. She is me. She's my baby musician that can only self soothe through hearing the pulse of the hospital machines and internalize it...something she could access and make something of (a more safe feeling). So I'm trying to let her feel that, but I'm feeling it too. We're like rewiring some experience together, sharing our tools. I'm so happy for my little musician though. I know she won't die. I just don't understand this much.
My therapist encouraged me to use my low tuning fork to help down-regulate and tolerate stuff. So I'm feeling where this young self is at, but helping her (with her own tools) as an adult. She is me. She's my baby musician that can only self soothe through hearing the pulse of the hospital machines and internalize it...something she could access and make something of (a more safe feeling). So I'm trying to let her feel that, but I'm feeling it too. We're like rewiring some experience together, sharing our tools. I'm so happy for my little musician though. I know she won't die. I just don't understand this much.
