While I Still Wait And Debate

[sonicwhite]

IDK honestly if I'm going to ever be married. Being alone for eleven years has taught me that I can survive on my own. Put a woman in the picture and you have to LOVE her. She will respect you.


I've grown in a lot of wisdom about relationships just because I never really had one fire up in eleven years. I'm thankful to God that He has His provision on me and wants the BEST for me even ir that's being alone.

I will admit. I used to love watching wicker park with my ex and just watch the movie. God bless her with an outstanding husband and give her the desires of her. Heart.


I'm sooooo effin shy it's not even funny, I have had kisses and winks. I've experienced that love you feel when someone comes to you and wants you. Secrets stay secrets, I'm not on to devoulge info.


Please pray that God will give me a still heart.

 

[void]

Do you know what you really want?

Have you been in a relationship that ended???

 

[EveHarrington]

You're still young. And even if you weren't-------it's never too late! :)

 

[sedna]

IDK honestly if I'm going to ever be married. Being alone for eleven years has taught me that I can...

I think I recognize your username, but not the photo so maybe you just changed it?
I dont remember anything about your back round from posts here..I'm kind of new.

I'll say this though, you're really cute, and only 30ish. You're also obviously a very sensitive guy, thats really had some hard times and trauma.
Most people become permanent assholes after hard times and trauma....but you didnt.

Being really painfully shy can feel like a hideous affliction or curse that makes everything worthwhile hopeless. I'm not being dramatic,
I was the same way for a long time. I used to pretend I had a boyfriend out of State so people wouldn't feel sorry for me.

A lot of times finding other sensitive people with common interests that you can meet in person is
the best way to feel a little safer. Maybe you can look for ways to do that...instead of waiting for God to drop her off on your doorstep...not that he
wont but it doesn't hurt to make an effort.

Also, and this is very true so pay attention, when you've been alone a long time old relationships can sound much more wonderful than they really
were. Sometimes to the point of being imaginary, its just from being a little lonely. It's the same as when the bad vacation in Hawaii gets steadily more fun over years, until a decade later we say its the best Holiday we've ever had.
Just keep that in mind. :)