I come back because it's important for me to keep myself on task. I have no insurance, therefore no T. As a retired person who is not yet 65 I have to count my pennies and make them count. The local PTSD group was disbanded so I was sorta floating around on the internet for a few years just reading and accumulating good ideas from informative websites. But, it lacked feedback and that is what a forum does.
When I found this great place, it came at a time when I was at a low point. It's important to find a sounding board for the difficult times. Realizing that I won't be here everyday is good to acknowledge. It means I have grown enough that I don't rely on it heavly like a crutch. I also have to acknowledge that with acute chronic PTSD that I have to pay attention to it and it's something that will always need tending to.
So, I come in for "tune ups" so to speak. Anyway, there are some wonderful people here! Nice forum friends who can relate and be honest. I try not to dwell too much into the diary stuff as I think that just stirs up too much for me in the form of triggers. Chat is good, welcome new members, give a little feedback, try to offer advice. I do what I can when I can. I had noticed I was becoming addicted to the internet so I had to pull back so I would not change one habit into some other. Attempting to find a healthy balance.
I have hope now and I have better days. Especially since my husband finally got his T to help him with his PTSD from Viet Nam and his anger problem. Once he understood how his anger outbursts were compounding my PTSD problems he really changed. Funny (or not ... I say this ruefully) how, after some 35 years, it dawned on him but it did. THANK YOU powers that be!!!
I will come back "as needed", which sounds like a good plan for me.
Kind regards to all and to Anthony a most sincere and grateful, deeply heartfelt appreciation for the forum. Love, map9
