Why I Wouldn't Commit Suicide.

[Tinyflame]

I'm so glad for you seedling, what if you don't have anyone, would you think?

 

[Iam]

For me it's not wanting to put those closest to me jeopardy of being in the exact same situation I'm facing now.

Sometimes that is the only thing that stops me......the pain I would cause those who love me and the potential that they would consider it an option if I were to role model an attempt, successful or not.

 

[anni]

This is such a beautifully crafted thread with such genuinely deep and thought provoking insights- touching on the philosophical, that I couldn't for the life of me see how it would be helpful to add my cent ( I can't call it 2 and you'll see why ) without sounding like the bottle-blond ditz in the crowd. I only can because I mentioned this to someone else who knew what I meant, amazingly enough, since it's one of those things which sounds ridiculous spoken out loud. Please do not for a moment think I'm taking something lightly I've pretty much had to keep a wary eye on over the years- as I said, this sounds flippant. It is not, that's all.

I will not commit suicide because I don't want to screw up someone else's day. That's basically it, the big, fat STOP, as the bottom line when things were 'there'. I t doesn't make a lot of sense to me, either, but it's just what happened.

 

[Nighthawk]

I will not commit suicide as my mother attempted suicide when I was a teenager and I remember the anger and hurt it brought me. I do not want to leave my daughter to go through the maze of life with out me.

NH

 

[Lucycat]

All I can say is that I will not commit suicide TODAY.

I first made a somewhat feeble attempt when I was just 9 or 10 years old. I have no experience and know nobody who has done it. But it haunts me. Thoughts mostly, and I have done a lot of planning and research. I do worry how my husband would deal with it, but that's all, I don't have any other family or children or anything.

 

[babaginge]

The only thing that scares me about being 'successful' in one of my suicide attempts is knowing in heaven/hell there are no tablets or beer....

 

[NIKI]

I will not commit suicide because I promised my husband and son that I would not.

 

[blueangel371115]

I will not commit suicide as I promised my family and my 'family' here I wouldn't.

 

[heavenofcalyx]

I won't lie, I've been frightfully, horrifically depressed to the point of being crippled, but have never felt suicidal. I think I'm both too stubborn and too scared to quit.

 

[Abbi]

I won't lie, I've been frightfully, horrifically depressed to the point of being crippled, but have never felt suicidal. I think I'm both too stubborn and too scared to quit.

I have felt that way in the past I will admit...I think over the past few years my thinking changed. Its not that things have gotten any better...actually this is the darkest period of my life and really I do not see light at the end of the tunnel.

I think there are three things that make me feel like I would not:
1. My boys...I was an absolutely great mom up until the past 2 years when depression/PTSD just have basically taken me away from them. I think there is enough good that it balances with my shortcomings for them, I know they love me no matter what. I just couldn't leave them with that burden and stigma.
2. More than once my Ex suggested it...so just to be stubborn myself...he controlled me so long but not to that extent. He may have sucked my soul right out of me but that is all he gets.
3. Faith...this is the only Hell I have to live through. Now if the Lord is ready to lift this burden by me passing well I am ready, but in His time not mine.

 

[AngelaMarie]

I will not try and commit suicide again because:
I have two children that need me (somehow I had convinced myself they would be better off without me the last time).
No matter how bad it gets, time changes everything, and it can always get better.
I am worth living.
I have support for the first time through this forum.

 

[bubblegum84]

Why I Wouldn't Commit Suicide -

So when that 'thing' hangs around me I can smell it... I can taste it.... I can hear it.... I can even feel it...

And I stand in front of it and I stare it dead in the eyes and I say with absolute conviction

I know who you are - we've met before................. now................ LEAVE

Thankyou for mentioning this, its very empowering taking control of the suicide ideation and seeing it for what it is rather than becoming a victim to it.