Why Won't Anyone Help Me?

[Hashi]

I apologize, I did'nt know. I was speaking out of my own personal experience. .

It's completely understandable that someone outside the UK would have no idea how poor, lacking or even non-existent services can be here. The NHS is shockingly bad. (((gizmo))) and ((((anyone who wants one)))).

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Dear Stenni,

I hope we get an update from you telling us what's happening. Did you get an appointment yet?

Solo

 

[OMNICELL]

Dont give up. Don't give up in general. You will get a break. It takes time, things will begin to roll in your direction.

 

[Sandstone]

I start therapy on Wednesday!

I'm so scared. This week is going to be really tough. On Monday I have a meting with HR, where I think they are going to try to get me to resign. On Tuesday I'm seeing a new Psychiatrist about having my meds changed and on Wednesday I start therapy. I'm also supposed to go to the GP, but I can't. Normally I only go out about once a fortnight, and after making one phone call this week I had two days of not getting dressed.

GP and Occupational Health Consultant both wrote to old Psych asking when he planned to review me: he responded that he had no plans to see me again. They both let rip, and I've now been referred on to secondary MH.

They came to my home to assess me, and said they couldn't believe I'd been left so long with nothing. They'd all sat in the case allocation meeting looking at each other and saying "Am I missing something?". I've been told by three lots of people that I should make a formal complaint.

So now I've got a main contact, who's a nurse and will see me fortnightly: a therapist who I'll see weekly, a new Psych. and an offer of support workers to go out with me if I want to do anything. It should all be great and I should be able to move on



BUT


But


but


It feels too late. When I was first referred, 10 months ago, I felt like a tortoise who had a hole in its shell, with flesh poking out. It was getting dragged on the ground, picking up dirt, sore and swollen. But now I've learned to keep completely still, so nothing can make it fester any more. I've applied the balm of day time TV and the dressing of tracing my family tree in detail. I don't want to start exposing that sore wounded part any more, and I just want to go on hiding.

I haven't been posting anything here because I had nothing to offer, and I couldn't keep on taking. I've no compassion. no wisdom, no support to offer, only fear. Just typing this is making me panicky and lightheaded.

 

[NIKI]

stenni, I'm so glad that you have help now. You did that. If you didn't keep on them nothing would have happened but you didn't give up. As long as your breathing it's not to late.

 

[The Albatross]

Try to bring your mind back around to the difference between the coping you've been doing for the last 10 months, and what you really want to manifest in your life Stenni? Very glad to read you're getting assistance Wednesday. Hope things will turn around and improve for you gal!

 

[Helliepig]

Stenni, I so understand. Speaking as a UK GP who tries to find services to help people, it is often a nightmare. So little is funded and available. Most of the therapist are over stressed or off sick. Our local psychiatry services are rubbish: if they agree to see anyone, which they usually don't, they're uselss when they do. They think they know it all too, and ignore what we GPs say to them. In my case i find that ultra frustrating as I know a lot about trauma and healing and what people need yet they seem clueless.

All I can say to you is to try and find an advocate - PALS, (patient advisory liaison serice who will take things up on your behalf) or your GP if you feel he/she is the interested sort of GP. Personally I've always had to do things privately because I knew before I started I'd never in a million years get the help I needed out of the NHS. There is still such ignorance about trauma and what people need. I so wish it were different.

Sorry just realised your latest post said you've got some help now... I really hope it works out for you xx

 

[mamachick]

stenni I know that feeling of "too little too late" because I have been there, but it is never too late.

Right now it is really important to listen to the internal messages you tell your self, and challenge them Its not easy when we get to the point of such discouragement, just keep at it one day at a time. Its ok of you have nothing to give-we have all been there. Keep taking what you need and sharing here if you can.