Work Fear

[Freedomfighter]

I have an extremely fear of going back to work I have always been a hard worker always the one to get pro...

Yeah, I experience increased perspiration in such situations too and get sick to my stomach as well. It was really bad when I first got PTSD, in those times I would sweat profusely and it was all related to pure fear. I remember when I was transported to the hospital with vertigo and sweating a lot when I was real sick then was also happening. To me that excessive sweating shows that the body is in real stress. And then it is embarrassing because we don't want to smell, but it is a side effect and then it is like: geez: isn't it enough having to deal with PTSD?

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Hi Wes43,

I am dreadfully sorry to hear of your circumstance. everything you have said in your f...

Thank you so much for sharing this!

I have my own work issues. I chose to be self-employed, and I'm really good at it when I'm okay mentally...It's great because it offers some wiggle room in terms of days of or starting my day at noon when I need to...At any other job I would have been fired 30 times until now...And my job is what I dreamed of doing...

But the last year has been rough though. I had few months when I couldn't even work 10h per week, I was that anxious. Obviously I can't get fired, but it means I made less than needed for a while, and got in debt, and that's scary too. And because I'm self-employed people's first reaction to any issue I have is get a regular job, not seeing that it would only make things worse. I am slowly finally getting a hang on it, and I hope I manage.

I am on one medication, but I also have Xanax for panic attacks, it's like an "just in case" thing...Also I have something for sleep which I use from time to time as well, though I try not to. It's nice to hear that it's not just me and sometimes medication takes a while to figure out what is the best and what's not.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

You know it's kind of strange I was starting to do well again then where I was working a while ago everyo...

It's not strange. I've been at a work place where everyone is negative and judgemental and it made me deeeeply depressed. I was lucky at that point in my life I was a lot better mentally. And still it took all my strenght to get though each day...that and the fact that was for 6 months only so I was counting the days until it ended.

One thing that I'm trying to implement is having support systems. More than one. I think trying to re-frame and figure out your issues while doing all regular daily stuff can be exhausting. So I try to find support systems for the different parts of my life. Like being here because of my past. Some really awesome positive groups on facebook about some hobbies I am developping. A really great entrepreneur social circle and subscription(to reset me when my past makes me negative about my work). It does help a bit.

Also...is it possible that those jobs don't fit what you're going through and who you are anymore? May be you need a different job that can fit your current life?