Sufferer Work=shocking Assault

[toukon]

My name is Angie and 2 1/2 years ago I was assaulted at work. It was on Halloween and I was working late as usual, handing out candy to my trick or treaters. I heard someone come in while I was in another room and just assumed that it was more of my kids. I was wrong. I was met with pepper spray to the face and hit with something. Next thing I knew I was melting down a wall. There's lots that I don't remember. I went into isolation. After a period of time, I began therapy. I continue to be on meds, but I don't see a therapist any longer. I still fight nightmares, anxiety, and life in general. I go to work, but that's about it. I spend most of my time in my room with my puppies. I know this is hard on my family, but I just get tired of the fight sometimes.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi Angie is fighting and welcome to the forum:) I am so sad about what happened to you and how you find yourself now. This is the right place to talk about your ordeal. I am so sad that you no longer see a therapist with so many of your symptoms go untreated.

I am glad you have puppies and that you spend time with them. They are so cute and sweet and real. I hope you feel safe to talk about your attack here. There are alot of people who have been through something similar that can help, support and encourage you here. It will help your healing process. It is nice to meet you. I think it took alot of courage to say what you did. I wish you the very best. Hugs if you take them.

 

[toukon]

Thank you for your kind words. I went to see a therapist for two years, but just got tired. It seemed a repeat of the week before. I continue to work--never really took any time off. Very few people actually know what happened. Since I work in a small rural area, I didn't want everyone to know. I wanted to appear brave enough to continue with life. Somewhere along the way I lost that. I have visited this site before, but just now got the courage to post. Thanks for the hugs. I know they are meant well, and without pity.

 

[NarcSis]

I would encourage you to keep writing, either here or in a private diary, it helps to process the event and examine your skills for coping with what happened.

I know in this forum, there are a lot of people who have gone through what you have and we can all learn from one another. One thing to remember, despite the differences in traumatic incidents, the symptoms and how we deal with them are usually all the same.

There are many people here who can help you to feel like a 'normal' person again.

Keep up the fight. :)