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Worst Type Of Sexual Assault?

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It's all the worst to me. My worst is my worst and your worst is your worst.
It all sucks. It all messed up our lives in huge ways.
Anally vaginally orally....all 3 happened to me...do I win the rape trifecta? Oh plus psychological torture. I get extra credit, right?
It's like shaming people because their rape wasn't bad enough or as bad as...even if OP didn't mean it exactly that way, that's how it comes off.
Rape is rape. We were violated. We were taken advantage of. We had our power taken away from us. It's not a bloody game of "what's worse".
 
I haven't read any of the replies in here and only answering the orginal post and this is just for me and in my experience.

I was a child prostitute. I was rented out. I was forced to make porn. I was forced to have sex with animals. I was forced to allow animals to have sex with me. There was human and animal penises stuck in every hole on my body. Most of the time multiple times a day.

The worst if I had to rate them or the ones I really dreaded were the animals but speaking of human anal was dreded mainly because they couldnt care less if I was given time to adjust and stretch and literally made me feel like someone just ripped my asshole opened and it was an inside pain so real bad.

Also I am a very small person and so when large sized guys would have vaginal sex with me it hurt real bad. Also many were on coke which made them want to f*ck for 8 hrs or more at a time and I also had to have back to back to back sex so eventually I couldnt walk and was bleeding a lot from both my vigina and anus.

I also dreded oral because most would grab my hair in their fists and push my head all the way down so I would constatnly gag and couldnt breathe.

I guess to rate them isnt good and im not really. Just saying what i dreaded more. It was normal as it has always been from the age of 6 so i didnt know anything else. It was a cult and the cult's bible is how i was to live. I didnt know anything else so it was just normal to me.
 
I haven't read all the replies either (except that last one - tepivor, so sorry that happened to you. And no, we shouldn't rate, but what you describe would be worse for me than what happened to me! so I guess I do rate horrors in a way.)
It's funny though, as I heard another woman who was horrifically raped. Tell me that the sly inferences on her character, the disbelieving of the event or the pity - in short, the unkind or ignorant reactions of some others hurt her worse than the event.
The abandonment
And I could relate.
The worst things for me also were what happened afterwards - inside and outside of me. the emotional changes were worse than the physical harm (which was pretty large - not able to have children after that)
And these feelings that come like a tornado of rage no matter how much effort I put into healing.
The worst thing for me is how it taught me hatred, like a disease passed on by the perpetrator. I tried so hard not to have hatred and I failed
And I now understand the hatred that causes this kind of thing because it is also in me now though I would never allow myself to hurt another like that.
But I have that anger in me now.
For me, that is the worst offence of all
 
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