Would You Hurt/kill Your Abusers?

[Soketi]

I've thought about it a lot...

If I were to hurt him, I'd hurt him like he hurt me; I'd take something from him that meant so much to him, something that he could never replace or get back, then watch him cry and reach and beg and mourn for it for the rest of his life.

He took my dignity, my body, my sense of self and gave me a lifelong virus. He deserves to lose what he loves most. He deserves emotional pain like I have.

Physical scars heal, mental scars are forever. As we all know.

 

[Vudup]

Yes, I would if I could.

 

[Tirip]

The opportunities have been and with some still available for me to hurt anyone of my abusers, however I'm not interested in hurting anyone. Note though that during it, or soon following abuse(s) of me, I sometimes have had to struggle with myself to retaliate or not to.

Mostly, I do not retaliate, however and to my dissatisfaction I've done so, as I am quite capable of falling short of life-long principles and values I've set and lived for myself.

As for killing anyone, as a teenager I thought this route might be effective and considered it, but mostly as a young adult, I didn't consider killing an abuser. There was one very abusive person however, that when I heard of his death, I was pleased he was gone from this earth and then perversely satisfied with how he went.

I would not think and feel the same way now.

 

[Akak]

Only if I can time travel too and get rid of them before any of it happened.

 

[Pige]

As a teen, killing my step-father was a daily decision. . .and I still live with the guilt of not executing him. When I'm closer to the person I want to be, I don't want him or my other abusers dead, I want them to somehow find a way to change their behavior. But, when they do die, the world will become a better place. . .and because I was a coward, the world has to wait to become a better place. . .and, that is all on me.

 

[Vebidi]

I don't see mine any more. I'm not sure how it would be if we met - a seesaw between intense fear and intense hatred. I hope if we do ever meet again that I will be in control of that seesaw.

 

[Fiseku]

I don't know what I would do if I saw him again...I've imagined and thought about this a lot. It's weird knowing he's out there somewhere and I could run into him at anytime. I honestly don't think I would do anything to him. I feel like he would "win" in a way if I did because then I have sunk down to his level and become no better than him. I would probably turn him into the police like I should have done all those years ago.

 

[Mifa]

If I wasn't a worthless fatass I would perpetrate a second holocaust against my abusers and everyone in the world like them. The only thing that keeps me alive is the thought of them begging for mercy, hacking up blood and me slamming my boot down onto their skull and pissing on their corpses.