You Know You Have PTSD When...

[Ocean5]

When you realize days later it's still affecting you, and you realize why.

While I'm use to seeing firetrucks with lights/sirens going off daily and police (city life.) What freaked me out most was all the flashing lights outside of my apartment building.

It's one of my first memories as child. All the cops outside house at age 5 or 6 after I had neighbor call police. Then watching your father arrested. So many cop cars. So many...

Too have so many show-up. They must have knew things I didn't about his past, or interaction with them. I was like 6.

Next time teenager I had police called. So many cop cars.... very small town. If city it would have been "Swat Team" since he was planning to do suicide by police.

 

[Changing4Best]

When a bunch of folks in the room you are in all start talking loudly at once and suddenly you feel like you are going crazy. Thankfully this feeling did not last long or I might have done something I later would have regretted. No one there knows I am mentally ill, (Bipolar and PTSD) and I would like to keep it that way.

 

[Ronin]

And you want to see your brother get married and you're anxious about going back.

Different way to look at this - you're not going back, you're going for him, and you're moving forward with him by even thinking about it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

you're not going back, you're going for him, and you're moving forward with him by even thinking about it.

I like this idea. Thank you for sharing it. It's just a bit hard to get my brain to go that way because I feel such a sense of dread about being there and I know everyone is expecting me to go and I don't want to disappoint my brother. I'm forcing myself to go for everyone else. I do want to see him get married. And then I think be there in that place? That's a hard thought. If I could without hurting or disappointing anyone I wouldn't go. The sense of dread is just that big. And it makes me feel very guilty and selfish to even think of not going. But I really like the way you've turned the perspective. I just wish it was easier to do. But is any of this stuff easy?

 

[jaccat]

When you recieve a letter from the solicitor and have to consider whether you are capable of taking it's news before opening it.

 

[Changing4Best]

When you keep forgetting to take out the garbage, and then think of it after dark and don't want to take it out then as you are afraid of the dark!

 

[Ocean5]

When you recieve a letter...have to consider whether you are capable of taking it's news.

I can relate to that lately. Haven't checked mail in a week. Like will I be able to handle something bad? Ok I'll wait till tomorrow. One more day. Lucky I don't get much regular mail except from insurance company.

 

[Ronin]

I don't have PTSD, I'm making this surprise meeting totally for no reason, and that signing 'shelter for a few' was ... nevermind I don't have PTSD. :banghead: (On another hand I learned a lot about veggies. Apparently showing me growing green things = cute above all else.) Swear to god, the shit my friends have to put up with some times.

 

[WildMermaid]

You know you have PTSD when you flip out over comments that support abusers. . __ .

 

[Ronin]

... and you remind yourself all your first ideas what to do with the abusers can so be termed jungle justice and we don't do that in a civilized society, hint hint, calm down self.

 

[Nighthawk]

You know you have ptsd when its time to throw in the towel. Tiered of therapy tiered of fighting and the war in my hear rages on.

 

[.Bubbles.]

When having a panic attack when a child playfully and unexpectedly puts his hand on your face, seems like a totally reasonable reaction.

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