Thanks for the replies!
I had a brain tumor removed 6 years ago and 2 seizures where I lost control of bodily movement. Couldn't walk or talk for 2 days. I think dealing with the medical system and my symptoms gave me anxiety.
During the time of surgery and recovery our neighborhood went to shit in Portland. So, we were literally battling drug houses and meth addicts. Several shootings, break-ins, meth addict driving through my back yard, motorcycle gangs, kidnapping/murder and a million other incidents.
These two events I think have caused me to be very anxious at times. Some have said its a form of PTSD. I'm not for sure.
It's hard to be normal when you can't escape the pain or anxiety. No one sees anything wrong and they expect you to be the same person.
Sorry your going through this and I wish you a Merry Christmas!