My Appointment Is Rescheduled And...

[Punky143]

It throws someone like me way off. It's that much longer to wait. I judge myself for being like this because someone my age shouldn't be worrying about this. But we are. And we're sad. And my T knows how it does

 

[trying2movefwd]

I am like that too. I had a scheduling mishap with my psychiatrist that landed me straight to an oupatient program. I hated my behavior and reaction. :(

 

[Friday]

Meh. I don't like surprises. I know this about myself. It's a valid thing not to like. Just like I am perfectly capable of hating birthday cake (I don't), crocodiles (I do), etc. People like different things. I dislike surprises. That very much includes sudden schedule changes. I'd far rather not have a schedule, than have one that suddenly veers off course. But sometimes? Despite my best efforts, shit I don't like, happens. That's just life, and nothing to be done about it.

Throwing a fit about not liking surprises? That's different. That's something I can do something about, something I can work on. Okay. How to handle disappointment, changing XYZ, adapting faster to ABC, etc. (AKA parsing what happens to cause the fit.) That's -for me- primarily emotional monitoring and regulation. That's learning how to take something I dislike & not letting it domino into more stuff I dislike. I don't have control over the first thing that happens, but I can learn control over my reactions, which is what causes the next series of things I don't like.

 

[sun seeker]

Sorry to hear that. I've had this problem a lot, so can sympathize with how you feel. Even if you understand that life happens and you have to adapt, sometimes there just isn't a lot of wiggle room when we're having a really hard time.

When are you rescheduled for? Is there anything you can think of between now and then to make the wait easier?