I Can't Seem To Survive In This World....

[Derp]

Here, all it is, is torment for the weak. Make a mistake, no matter if it's small, medium size or large, you pay. The one place you're supposed to learn about life and how to live, only teaches you to beat someone's ass; violence. Who's stopping it; there's nobody left to stop because they've been corrupted by the power of societal norms. Speaking of those, I don't fit there. I'm different, passionate, crazy....and by being myself, I already can't conform. Buy why conform? Oh, because if you don't you're going to be in a ring, fighting a damn bull, that's why. For me, because I dont fit? I'm ridiculed, hated, called annoying by my f*cking grandma and deserted by many. Let's not forget, the passions I have....they all fall apart. But even when I don't burn myself out, somebody yanks it out of my hand and tears it up. I don't have a good grip, now do I?
I don't fit in here, why can't I just die?....they say diversity is a gift, but people want to die from it. What's my purpose in this corrupted world? I can't seem to figure out how my unique "qualities" help the world rather than tear it apart. Why can't I just die, and escape the bullfight?

 

[Wusijar]

Here, all it is, is torment for the weak. Make a mistake, no matter if it's small, medium size or large, you pay. The one...

I feel the SAME WAY. But im hanging in there. You do the same friend!!! Hang in there! The fight wont last forever...God has a plan for you brother...stay strong and stand with me....

 

[Isela]

You have faced trauma severe enough to be diagnosed as ptsd. You have faced unbelievably high amounts of adversity. Others without these experiences cannot imagine the everyday struggles you have faced. BUT you are still here, still kicking! I applaud you and beg you, do not give up...do not give in...keep fighting..you have done a great job so far....you really have...you CAN do this!!!

 

[Iko]

Feeling similarly. However, wondering if there's some reason we sort have survived. Even if it's just to give each other good company? Hugs

 

[Derp]

Thank you:)I'll try to fight even though it doesn't seem worth it sometimes....:hug:

 

[Derp]

You have faced trauma severe enough to be diagnosed as ptsd. You have faced unbelievably high amounts of adversity. Othe...

I wonder if you know my story lol......but I won't give up yet:)

 

[Japodu]

Thank you:)I'll try to fight even though it doesn't seem worth it sometimes....:hug:

Im glad you took that to heart...because it was from my heart...take care of yourself friend..don't hesitate to post here anytime you need interaction, advice, a boost...whatever...everyone here can relate and everyone here cares about YOU...mind blowing for many of us I know...but it's true...you are never truly alone...be blessed :)

 

[Ojo]

I wonder if you know my story lol......but I won't give up yet:)

My experiences are different from yours and we are all unique in our traumas and how we experinced them...check my threads on my profile if you like...I just went through a very difficult battle trying to compare or make sense of myself by downplaying my own trauma...it ended with some hard won conclusions...dont make the mistake of comparing the severity of your trauma to others....it is all subjective according to the level of threat or danger as experinced by us, the victims or targeted

 

[Derp]

My experiences are different from yours and we are all unique in our traumas and how we experinced them...check my threads...

I don't know your username XD it's anonymous.

 

[Nituza]

I don't know your username XD it's anonymous.

I realize that now at first on my end at least it showed my username...hopefully im not breaking the rules...but my username is Adrian2016 and the thread i am talking about is titled How do I know

 

[Derp]

I realize that now at first on my end at least it showed my username...hopefully im not breaking the rules...but my use...

Ahh, found the thread, your story is much different than mine....wait do you know my story just out of curiosity because honestly, i dont think it's that traumatic I think I'm an overreactive bitch, lol.

 

[Gejore]

Ahh, found the thread, your story is much different than mine....wait do you know my story just out of curiosity because...

I do not know it but am open to hear it if you wish to share. I think its important that you not demean your condition like that though...if you are having problems and have been told it is because of trauma than you are likely in the right place...as you saw many people reply to my similar sense of doubt....be honest with yourself...and gentle...don't be so hard on yourself :)