Sexual Assault Police Officers Hurt Me- The Police Did A Cover Up

[Changing4Best]

I'm so sorry this is happening to you, innocent one. I can feel your pain and it hurts me too, to know you are going through all this and you are suffering. I don't want to see you go to Jail again. I wish I could be there to give you a hug (if you wanted to be hugged, that is). This is so awful what they have done to you and what may happen. But please don't give up. Call that Public Defender back when they told you to, and try your hardest to be polite to the Judge. Say, "Yes, Your Honor," and "No, Your Honor." Treat the Judge with the utmost of courtesy. Your life may depend upon it.

I know this will be very hard for you, being in court. It will especially be difficult, because when the newspapers have been involved and everyone in town knows about it, some of them will show up in court and gawk at you. Some may even jeer or make rude noises during your testimony. Try not to pay them any attention. Be polite to the prosecutor and answer any questions given to you in as short and simple, but pleasant answers as you can. Long drawn out answers can confuse those who need to decide in your favor, so the simpler the answers you give, the better chances of your being understood and believed.

Do bring with you any evidence of your being a vulnerable adult. If you can have your case worker present as a witness, even better! Bring a copy of the email that the police officer sent to you. If you don't have a printer, go to the Library, Log onto your email account there, and copy it there at the Library. Bring any other evidence that you have against this man also. Show these things to your lawyer too.

Does that all make sense to you?

 

[Deleted member 34195]

I'm so sorry this is happening to you, innocent one. I can feel your pain and it hurts me too, to k...

Yes. I am going to print out the facebook conversasion him and I had- he claimed he never talked to me on facebook- he did- he added me on facebook - i put a friend request in long time ago- he said he was my friend- he added me-- then he talked to me in private message- then i ended up feeling suicidal and i ended in crisis center- he told me to delete my facebook- he said he deleted his- the reason he did so was to cover his butt- i figured that out later on-- he lied to his superiors... i am also going to print out the email- he claimed he didn't email me...he is just sick. what i plan on doing after all this-- i know the newspapers and news folks will be there--- they already put out information about me online-- i already getting gossiped about, gawked at-- it is icky--it is like being re-victimized all over again. i kept telling myself today that do not let the police have power over you and do not let them kill your spirit--killing myself gives them power--- none of them would care if i died-- except there is one police officer who was the one who took me to jail- she told me in the police car that she felt awful having to do this- she said this was one of the hardest things she had to to do cause she said she cared about me- her and I had heart to heart talk about PTSD in past- she is nice officer- she said I dont deserve to be in jail- she has superiors above her head-- she knows........i know that she would be sad if something bad happened to me. her hands are tied-- it is called the thin blue line for reason- the good police officers are too afraid to report their bad co-workers who did bad- if they do- they lose their job--they get bullied, etc.- it happens- i know there are good police officers out there.... for the cop mentor- the cop i trusted and bared my soul too- he took advantage of the vulnerable- i trusted that man like a brother-- he betrayed my trust on so many levels- it hurts so much-- i suspect he is done this to others--i am sure he did icky to his ex-wife too- he bashed his family in uniform- i reported that to the police too- that he bashed his wife and child in my apartment- a huge red flag went off-- i suspect that he was cheating on his wife- here i found out that yes he was--he divorced his wife and married his female cop co-worker-- he disrespected his wife while in uniform- he has no respect for woman...... his ego is huge, he is extremely charming and manipulative-- he is sociopath.......... he is..............he has no remorse and he lied to his superiors--he lied under oath. thank you for thinking of me Kathy- I am sure some people are reading this including police officers-- I want to note that I am not a cop hater--I know good cops exist out there--- a cop from local police department groomed me-- he totally messed with my head. I want to clarify too that I am NOT suicidal --I was just really upset when I wrote that other message- I don't need police officers reporting me or whatever-- this police officer is walking free as we speak- he did a lot of emotional damage-- I don't want his money- I just want justice- he needs to be disciplined by his supervisors for what he did- i am afraid he will do more damage to another vulnerable person-- he lacks boundaries--- these people need mental health help too- even the social worker said that the cop needs mental health help--he needs to be disciplined and fired for what he did-- he knew what he was doing- he is authority figure-- if he doesn't know what he is doing then he should definitely not be in position of authority over the most vulnerable---that is scary indeed. Thank you!!! <3 I love consensual hugs. :)

 

[Neverthesame]

I'm working my way through your posts so I don't miss anything, not quite there yet.

I did want to point out one thing to you with regard to your harassment order.

If for whatever reason you feel the need to phone the police. Do not use 911 for any non-emergency reason. If you have to, use the non-emergency line. Though seeing as they have a harassment order against you, it's probably best not to phone them at all. Use your legal resources (public defender, victim advocate, social worker ect.) If they send you letters, phoning 911 to ask why, will get you in trouble.

It's not just about you in that regard either. If I do that here, I'll get in trouble. I'm not pointing blame at you, or saying that you deserve anything. The way you described your being arrested for misuse of 911, sounded legit.

911 is for reporting an emergency. Not for discussing legal documents mailed to you. Just be careful. I hope things work out ok for you.

 

[Changing4Best]

I was thinking that since it is all over the news and the cops have power in the district that this happened in and could pay off a judge or hold some kind of sway over him or her in some way, you might be able to get your case moved to another locality. You would need a lawyer who is not connected with your police department to do this. In other words, you would probably need a lawyer from another district as well. One who would be willing to work Pro Bono (for free) would be best.

As to whether you called 911 illegally or not can only be decided by a Judge or preferably a Jury. No one here has that authority, because no one here has all the evidence and/or has the whole story.

So I would suggest that you contact a lawyer outside your district, one that is not under the Juristiction of the court that is handling your case, and due to the news coverage, ask that you would only be able to get a fair trail in that other district.

 

[Fadeaway]

I know this doesn't mean much, but you are not alone in what you have experienced My father in law is a retired officer. Having grown up around police, he will be the first to tell you, never report to the department that assaulted you. Go straight to the FBI. Once it is on the FBI's radar, they won't dare make a move against you while there is an investigation going on. However, if your life becomes endangered during it, they might let you die.

 

[Changing4Best]

That is scary. Very SCARY.

 

[Anarchy]

Thanks @Fadeaway , that is excellent advice for our OP

However, if your life becomes endangered during it, they might let you die.

... Very SCARY.

they'll even do that to their own who break their blue code of silence; Frank Serpico is the best known example https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frank_Serpico I can find plenty more examples.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

Thanks @Fadeaway , that is excellent advice for our OP


they'll even do that to th...

I wanted to update you all---the police are charging me with breaking their HRO and for misusing 911 when I called to question about threatening letter I received in mail. I want you all to realize is there is going to be two seperate court cases going on. I have two misdemeanor serious charges against me-- the police brutality situation can't be discussed at this hearing-- it has nothing to do with the charges against me- I hope this makes sense. If i want justice about what those cops did including the one who groomed me- will have to go to a police brutality attorney and file charges against the police- like a lawsuit about abuse by the hands of the police-- these are two separate cases. Right now, I have to pretty much plead guilty cause I did call 911 to address why I received a threatening letter about being put into to jail for 90 days--- I learned that is not an emergency- that is legal issues and should have been addressed with court administrator-but, now I know- I am guilty for misusing 911- then for the charge of breaking their HRO- they claimed I broke it because I called 911 and reported a man who I thought was sexual predator-- He creeped me out-- I cannot go into details of what he did- I reported him because I didn't want him to hurt anyone- the police said i had no right to call 911 to report a guy who possibly was going to commit a sexual offense- since they put HRO on me-- they claim I have no right to report crime to them--if someone rapes me, hurts me, burglarizes me, assaults me, hits me in a car, or whatever- I have NO right to call 911 to report an emergency and receive help-- there is HRO against me- it is really messed up-- people can hurt me --yet I have no right to receive help by the people who say they are here to protect and serve their community---it is messed up situation. I don't feel I broke the HRO by reporting a man who did icky- My sister told me to call 911- she thought he was a sexual predator or sex offender- I thought he was too- I wanted to give them a heads up cause I didn't want anyone to get hurt-- I just saw the police report for that --that cop lied on the police report--- I don't have cats--he said that I showed that man pics of my cats--what is the cop talking about? the police officer took my phone and all and twisted shit and lied- it is sick--- these cops are sick criminals themselves.. they also state that I broke the HRO because I wrote a public review on their police dept on facebook- yes I did-- I wrote about how I was groomed and gave the public heads up about a police officer (though I did not name him publicly) on their force who will continue preying on the most vulnerable and I also told the public about the scare tactics I have received including about how an officer tried to drive me off the road and tried to kill me- that is the truth-- they said I broke HRO because I wrote public reviews about them- how is that breaking the HRO? I wasn't talking to them- i wrote a public review about them-- then a news story picked it up and wrote something about what i stated in what the police did to me. The police have so much power............when I go to court for the matter in which I am being charged I cannot bring up what that police officer did in grooming me and about being assaulted because what the charges they put against me has nothing to do with those officers who hurt me-- these are two separate cases-- if I want justice- after this court hearing, I need to contact a police brutality attorney and file charges against the police or contact the FBI for an internal investigation-- I will have to suspenea the social workers, the psychologist, etc. and get warrant to retrieve the emails and also suspena police officers who I reported too about what this cop did-- I hope you realize these are two separate matters. I will let you know that I am pleading guilty to the two charges that the police put against me cause I have no other choice at this time-- i don't agree with the breaking the HRO-- i guess you are not allowed to publicly review the police dept--they don't want the public to know the truth--basically you could call me a whistle-blower-- I whistle blew my police department for the corruption they did--they want me to shut the hell up and be quiet and that is why they have lied on police reports about me and that is why they did repeated scare tactics including in trying to kill me-- I also called the police out for killing a local war vet- they are in huge lawsuit right now for killing a war vet-they murdered him--i told the police they treated that man so inhumanely-- they didn't like that i called them out for murdering a war medic- it is the truth-- the family of the war vet has filed lawsuit against the police and the city in which I live-- i am sure they will continue even after this court hearing- i am sure they will continue trying to make my life a living hell-- once the HRO is over with in 2 years-- the police will never ever help me on 911 call if someone is hurting me---they will let me die...... i have read horror stories about other police officers who been bullied by their own and also where the police refuse to help them and pretty much the police terrorize their own who stand up against the injustices that are happening in the police force. They are also using my mental illness against me. I have PTSD and major depression. They are trying to also get me committed by the mental health courts-- you don't realize that the judges, attorneys, the city, the social workers etc. are all cohorts with the police- they are- they are all mandatory reporters- they are too afraid to speak up against the police- therefore they will stand and be bystanders to it- it is really sick..... i tell you straight up- the social workers that told me to report this icky cop- they won't return my phone calls-- one of them implied on telephone that he is planning on coming to my court hearing- not to help me-- just to listen--he said that he might try to get me civilly committed to psych hospital-- my own county- the social workers who told me that the police did icky and that officer who groomed me--now they don't want any involvement and will not stand up for me-- talk about the injustices- what betrayal of complete trust- the system is broken and corrupted..... the psychologist has not return my phone calls. she doesn't want to be involved --yet she is the one who told me i was being groomed- she is mandatory reporter too-- I am on my own. Even the public defender has not called me back-- i am going to be standing in the court by myself. Once this court case is over- if the county tries to civilly commit me to psych hospital--- I will be speaking to a police brutality attorney and then I might have to press charges against the social worker who are mandatory reporters--they knew yet they didn't report and told me they can't do anything about it-- they said I have to deal with it on my own-- I don't need to be in psych hospital- I told the truth- I am telling you the truth-- I feel like I am being victim blamed for the crimes that happened to me--- I have the transcript on my computer between that cop and I- i have facts that I know that only that police officer and his dept would know--the reason I know is because he told me things-- I have dates and times in which would prove that he was up here-- I am sure I can get warrant for hotmail to dig up all the deleted emails as well as the emails on his end-he can lie all he wants--- I am going to court hearing alone- I am standing alone-- the maximum sentence is 90 days in jail and $1,000 fine--that is for the HRO only-- not sure what the sentence is for misusing 911- that might me more jail time and huger fine-- I probably be going to jail again-- once I am out- I am contacting the FBI- and police brutality attorney outside of my city and county and I am going to file charges against my local police department for doing a cover up when I reported bad cops. I also may report the social workers who I reported too- yet they are mandatory reporters and they refuse now to help me- yet they want to do a cover up as well and try to civilly commit me to psych hospital- it is sick-- I will go up the ladder and report to the social work board about the corruption....

 

[Anarchy]

Hi Dylan
I was refraining from commenting until this morning. you might have guessed that I'm not a fan of the chubby blue line

I can see that you are very upset and that you have very good reason to be upset, offering you very definitely platonic :hug:, if you accept them.

I'm not sure what the technical word for this is, I use the phrase, "negative or downward spiral" to describe when someone is allowing their negative thoughts about the future to get the better of them and to drag them further down.

can I suggest that unless you are actually looking for a lawyer, or talking to one or writing to one...

that you concentrate on what is around you in the present, and do something that you enjoy doing?

also, I'm going to suggest that you search on youtube for "the mindful way through depression, full audiobook"

It's good for far more than depression, I think you'll like it. listen to about half an hour of it at a time (there's over five hours of listening) you should be able to find the "guided meditations" which go with it as well.

youtube keeps taking it down, so it's no good me posting links, they quickly go dead, you are better searching for it yourself.

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ps
If you break your writing into paragraphs, and keep posts short, they are a lot easier for people to read

and as a result, you will find that more people will read them.

 

[Deleted member 34195]

Hi Dylan
I was refraining from commenting until this morning. you might have guessed that I'm not a fa...

I know this sounds bad Anarchy.......the truth is, I am going to give up. I am not going to go to hearing....... I know there will be warrant for my arrest- the public defender won't return my calls. my court hearing is in less than a week- they don't make phone calls on weekends. it is wednesday. My court hearing is next week. I don't want to be drug through this all.... I don't have the energy- I talk strong-- I am exhaustated. I never win. I don't want face the world anymore... I am exhaustated. I don't want to start group therapy and another therapist and start over all over again.

I don't want to face the world anymore..... it is harsh world. the people I trusted- the social workers, etc-- they betrayed my trust. in the end, they are doing nothing to help. the therapist and all of them won't talk to me-- they will try to civilly commit me for speaking out. i never forgive them. if there is hell, i hope all them go there- I don't know how the police, the social workers, etc. live with themselves....truly sociopathic. i trusted all them. it is selfish world. they don't return phone calls. they haven't for a week-even in jail- they didn't reach out to me-- i tried to contact my ahrms girl and i said it was urgent-- she cancelled on me on monday again- she now emails me and says I have to wait to discuss this when I see her next- it is all about money--it is. i give up. peace to you. be well. there will never be justice. that is that. people think giving up means being a coward- i been through hell and back-- I have had crimes committed against me since I was a 5 year old child. i trusted the police- i used to do police advocacy- i used to look up to the police as positive role models- than i saw saw cops do icky and had cops hurt me- i spoke up and reported and they refuse do a police report on their own and they did a cover up--now my name is smeared in public light. i give up. peace to you. hugs back. be well.

 

[joeylittle]

@Dylan_Green - I want to echo a few things @Anarchy said.

One thing at a time - it's hard to untangle issues when they all feel tied together. But right now, you need to go to the hearing and admit to breaking the restraining order with the Facebook post, and mis-using 911. You need to ask for a court-appointed defender. These two charges are misdemeanors, and there's no need to avoid them. Avoiding them will only escalate your stress. Focus on taking accountability for those two actions.

When that's done, you can describe the initial interactions with the police officer to your lawyer, and see what they say. Only a lawyer will truly be able to tell you whether or not you can pursue a formal accusation.

Then, you need to re-connect with social services and bring a friend or family member with you. You mentioned your sister - does she live nearby? Get all the issues organized and separated. Decide what needs to be addressed first - and that will be whatever will help you stabilize, psychologically. It's probably not about charging the cop. It might be about increasing your therapy, or building a support circle. Hard to say.

May I ask a question?

The call you made about the potential sexual predator - did something happen to you, or did you see a strange person and call to report?

 

[Deleted member 34195]

@Dylan_Green - I want to echo a few things @Anarchy said.

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I just saw this............. i just read this now. i am exhausted. I know that if you don't go to court- you will get a warrant for your arrest and then you get a felony............i am going to have to move probably out of my county after this cause honestly they are not willing to help me. I reported a man who approached me at the local grocery store-- he said he was a behavioral science major..... he was talking to me in the aisle of the grocery store. He was nice to me-he works at the grocery store- now I found out that he no longer works there-- I don't know if he was fired- anyways--- he was talking to me= i didn't on any strange cues about him in person--he asked for my phone number- I gave it to him- he gave me mine-- he said he was interested in seeing my photography---i take photographs for fun- so he asked me to open a facebook account- so I did- i added him on facebook- he sent me a private message and he said he had two daughters and a wife--he has behavior science major- the thing that scared me-- is that he started asking me very personal questions and then he said he was looking for sex- he said he committed bad crimes in past and he said he likes insulting people to get them upset--he said that he has criminal mindset- a devient mindset-- he was talking about tying people up and he asked me why I had PTSD- i told him about being raped and all- then he asked me if I like being tied up---he said he wanted me to go meet him down at park- I showed the converation to my sister- there is a lot more graphic things he stated in that private message-- my sister told me he sounds like a sex offender and to report him- i did-- i told him I was on disability and had staff that comes and sees me- he wanted me to go meet him at park- he asked me if i was sexually active and asked me if I like being tied up after I told him I was raped-- he called his wife degatory names- he is sick puke- i saw a pic of his young daughters-- red flags went off- my sister told me to report him to police-- they did nothing..... they used that against me for breaking the HRO for reporting this man. I found out from the local grocery store that he no longer works there....