Decided To See A Psychiatrist

[PTSDfree]

Knew I had to do something... I stayed up for three days straight and ended up hallucinating from it. :yuck: Trying to stay as far away from benzos as I can... I was taking 8mg of Xanax and 10mg of Ambien together everyday and I think it fried my brain a little. It's been nearly two years since I last saw a psychiatrist, so I'm a little nervous. But I managed to get an appointment set up! :D

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I was taking 8mg of Xanax and 10mg of Ambien together everyday

8 mg Xanax? Good god! Im prescribed 1mg 3 Xs a day and cant see any sane Dr giving you that much! Were you abusing it?

ETA:

But I managed to get an appointment set up!

forgot to say in happy for you on the appointment!

 

[EveHarrington]

Awesome! Glad you're taking steps forward in your healing!

 

[PTSDfree]

8 mg Xanax? Good god! Im prescribed 1mg 3 Xs a day and cant see any sane Dr giving you that...

Agreed! From what I've read on here, it seems like doses over 4MG are pretty much unheard of. I wasn't abusing it, but I was physically dependent on it and had withdrawal symptoms for quite a few weeks. I originally saw a nurse practitioner who specialized in child psychiatry, so maybe that's part of it. I think most of the kids that she saw were just there for ADHD meds. She kept asking me about my own virginity and telling me about her story of CSA when it really wasn't relevant to my situation. (I was mainly emotionally/physically abused by my mom. Some things did get sexual with her other family members, but it wasn't like in that pedophile/rapey sort of way. It was just done to make me feel bad and I don't think that they didn't sexual pleasure out of it.) She also charged my dad for some sort of genetic test a few weeks before and never went over it. My last straw with her was when she started to share additional details about her family life and kept going on and on about her new granbaby. The second (or first full on MD) psychiatrist that I saw and helped me get off the meds and was really surprised that someone would ever prescribe so much Xanax. :facepalm: My sleeping is way better now than it was back then, but now my sleeping issues are starting to come back and I know I need to do something about it.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Wow for that MD! Glad you got away from them! How unprofedsional. I mean my therapist talks to me about his wife and kids and first grand daughter but he's my therapist with a much different relationship then a GP. My anxiety was flowing over the 3 mgs a day of xanax so my pschyatrist put me on seriqueol XR now on 300mgs of that a day and it's allowing me to cut way back in my xanax.

I have never been phsyically dependant on xanax so never went through withdrawls but 8 mgs a day everyday, no wonder. That GP should be fired or loose their license of something! That is an insane amount and every Dr should know they are addictive.

Im so glad you are getting another Dr! And a psychitrist at that which is way better that a GP!

 

[PTSDfree]

Wow for that MD! Glad you got away from them! How unprofedsional. I mean my therapist talk...

Yup! I know my other doctors' families pretty well, but I think the nurse practitioner just didn't know what to do with trauma related stuff. I hardly do myself! :p

 

[Ocean5]

Glad you are going to a psychiatrist. Even though I realize how hard it can be. Congrats!

I was given Xanax as needed. Psychiatrist stressed to me importance of not taking daily. First visit she said it was important I went to a psychiatrist, because she has seen some nurse practitioners give out the wrong medicine, and make things far worse.

Best of luck!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

the nurse practitioner just didn't know what to do with trauma related stuff.

Yeah, a psychritrist is much better! I see one and it was also advised to me to take the xanax as needed and have had months gap in it which is how i know i never got physically dependant on it.

Im glad that i can now have better anxiety management with the seriqueol xr and lower the xanax by myself and its just helping a lot.

Good luck to you on the new Dr!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

How are you doing with Xanax now? :hug: And the other stuff...

Also, I wonder how you survived that dosage

 

[PTSDfree]

How are you doing with Xanax now? :hug: And the other stuff...

Also, I wonder how you survived that do...

Haven't taken it in almost two years! The withdrawal period didn't hit me too hard either. :) I never really liked that dopey feeling that it gave me anyway... It felt more like my anxiety was trapped inside of my own body and still didn't relieve the mental bit.

The pdoc that I scheduled an appointment with decided to go on vacation and cancel my appointment RIGHT before (like three days??) I was going to go see him, so I didn't bother rescheduling. If he does something like that the very first time, then he's just not worth seeing IMO. I can totally understand if he did it a week before, but it was three days! I already had my day planned for that. Besides, it's $200 freakin' dollars. I can buy a buttload of obscure russian anxiolytics off the internet AND get a massage for less. No prescriptions or talking needed. :grumpy:

Fortunately, my sleep has gotten better and I'm not hallucinating from lack of sleep anymore.... I think I was just having a temporary bout of crazy! :laugh: