XXbabydollXX
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My parents used to be married. My narc father aka the monster divorced my mom when I was 6 years old. He used to abuse my mom like a damn coward. He would spit on her punch her and call her a failure btw she went to college and earned a masters degree white he never finished high school with his illiterate ass. He would cheat on her multiple times with many different women. It was just me and my siblings. What I remember still kills me now. A year ago I began to have flashbacks of the sexual abuse he did to me. When was 5, he put me in the shower and gave me a bath and washed me. He then he began to finger me while looking into my eyes. I then began to cry because it hurt alot. He began to get annoyed and asked me why I was crying, like I was overreacting. I believe that he molested me more than once because as child i had the fear of a dark shadow coming into my room to get me i still have those nightmares. My mom found out what happend once when she gave me a bath and I said that private parts hurt and I was walking weird. She looked in me to see if I was ok and then she took me as fast as she could to a hospital. The doctor had a bright overhead light on and she asked me a bunch of questions that I refused to answer. I remember her using a swab and opening me up. I remember her telling my mom that abuse happend and I have brusing and swelling. I was put in therapy. She reported it to the police along with a death threat he made against her before the sexual abuse happend. He threatened to kill her will one of the many rifles he had. He collected everything from handguns to hunting rifles. The police came and told him to leave or they will arrest him. The court had to throw out the molestation charge because they claimed they didnt have enough evidence. My mom was granted a order of protection and s restraining order that covered us and her. She still has her order now and never plans of getting rid of it. Let's jump 7 years later, He was able to have supervised visits with us while our mom is the custodial parent. He now has overnight visits with us every 2 weeks. As a child I didn't remember any of this stuff. I only remembered it last year I'm 16 now.He has a new wife who only cares about appearances. She is fake asf. My sibling see him as a great person. In the town where he lives the town members see him a generous man when in reality he has them all fooled. He runs a smear campaign against my mother and calls me a failure and emotionaly abuses me.No one's knows that I remember anything. I'm currently dealing with what I believe to be bipolar disorder, ptsd, ocd, self harm, and anxiety. I was never diagnosed. I have rape fantasies of older men. I don't know what to honestly. Thanks for reading my story. BTW he lost his gun permit.
