I had a really bad two years with 16 total (inpatient and outpatient) hospitalizations. Mostly because meds were not working right, my ptsd symptoms have improved some, but i was still severely depressed, having panic attacks and impulsively suicidal at times, now that we know i have ptsd, severe major depression recurrent, panic disorder, and Borderline Personality disorder it all makes so much sense why some things just were not working. Today I'm glad to be alive. I just know working isn't in my list of short-term goals. I hope someday, but if not I will be greatful for what I have. My attorney says that due to the many hospitalizations it's his guess that I will be an exception and approved the first time through. I hope to goodness he is right. I don't know how well I would handle a denial. :nailbiting::bag: