Can't Fight The Suicidal Thoughts

[Alibongo]

I hope that in the morning you will see a brighter day, and things will be even a tiny bit better.........

Nite nite

 

[BlueOrange]

I'm coming out of a phase of being depressed and feeling worthless myself. It felt awful, and I'm really glad that my feeling of being capable is coming back.

 

[Pixielicious]

Thank u
I just feel that I hate the person I've turned into-I used to be strong and confident. Now I...

Write your thoughts down... It's working for me...
Don't give in...listen to these fantastic people and their advice... You so are not alone..

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

It does matter. Your struggles matter. You may very well figure it out on your own, but it still matters. Are you able to call your therapist or contact her in between sessions if things are really hard like they are now? The online crisis lines can be helpful. I haven't had much luck calling any because they don't seem to understand and always take the route of trying to distract me which is successful on the phone, but then when I hang up the thoughts come flooding back. I have used online ones before and gotten better responses. It's at least a place to start. So is here. Knowing how many people are on here supporting you. There are sometimes no easy answers and sometimes you just have to do the next best thing and the next best thing and none of those include suicide. It means eat breakfast, watch TV, curl up and take a nap, whatever you are able to do and will help you. Sometimes it's a specific skill or guided meditation that will help slow things down and at least keep you going until these feelings pass. Hoping you find the best way to help yourself and find support.

 

[RavenGirl]

I truly believe the world is a better place because you are in it. ♡:) I think of /look at the world as one HUGE jigsaw puzzle. FILLED with millions of unique, beautiful, different size and colored pieces (us) who all fit together in a very intricate pattern and who are all needed to complete the puzzle I call life! Please stay with us as we need you to complete the puzzle.

I say self affirmations every day to help me remember why I deserve to be here. Maybe they could help you too... here's some I use, you can tailor some to fit you. I say them out loud to myself, at first it seems weird, but after a while I actually believed what I was saying and that was a beautiful thing. I hope it helps you, if even a little :tup::inlove:

I am more than good enough
I deserve to be loved
I deserve respect
I am beautiful
I am Perfect just the way I am
I deserve kindness and compassion
I am loveable
I am special
I am proud of myself
I am a survivor
I am stronger than I look
I am a masterpiece!
Hang in there. Just as a caterpillar turns into a butterfly, I pray you come out of this darkness even more beautiful and confident. :hug: Raven

 

[Alibongo]

Thank u all so much. Today is another day - am getting out the house to go to the gym for an hour so I'm hoping that will help. Raven girl I will try that thanks. My T has never mentioned I could contact her outwith the sessions but tbh I don't think she's aware of how bad it's been. When I told her a few weeks ago she phoned me in between sessions which helped. She wants to discharge me but when I go in next week I'll need to tell her about this-wjat if she thinks I'm just saying it to stay in therapy

 

[Alibongo]

I'm coming out of a phase of being depressed and feeling worthless myself. It felt awful, and I'm re...

I'm so glad u are starting to feel better xx

 

[digger]

I struggle with speaking on telephones so crisis lines don't work for me at all.

You may already be aware, but just in case you're not, in the UK, the Samaritans have an email service ([email protected]) as well as their helpline. It's not instant like a telephone call, and you don't have the continuity of always having the same person responding to you during the conversation, but I have still found it helpful at times as place to be able to offload and give words to some of what is going on in my head, and the wait for the reply has actually helped me kind of put things on pause for a bit.
They also have a text service which I have used which works in a similar way to their email, ie. Not instant and responses from different people, and that was helpful to me as an interim until I could get in to see my T last time I was in crisis. They don't advertise the number for texting yet widely as I think they are still trialling it in some areas, but they were fine with me having sourced the number elsewhere and using the service. (Let me know if this is something that might be helpful to you and I'll find the number)

Unfortunately I'm yet to find a UK based instant messaging service - definitely a gap there...

Hope you are feeling a little better this morning.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Alibongo Have a great day..... I hope the sun shines bright and it brightens your day and mood....

 

[Alibongo]

I struggle with speaking on telephones so crisis lines don't work for me at all.

You may already be awa...

Thanks digger Yeah I've actually used the email service -some people were great and some not. Might send them a wee email thanx for reminding me. Yeah I definitely think a chat service would b amazing!
@She Cat thank u so much! I hope u all have a wonderful day too
Oh I live in Scotland so we never get any sun :p

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Alibongo I know someone that lives there..... maybe that's adding to the depression. I HAVE to have sunlight, if I don't then the depression hits me hard. Maybe you should invest in one of those lights that mimic sunlight. It may help..... you, have a good day too.

 

[Gs172003]

Thanks digger Yeah I've actually used the email service -some people were great and some not. Might se...

Lol helps if I get the right danged country. I'm trying