Need Help Coping With Yelling

[Jacqueline1]

Not so much to be kindly

Thank you . I'm other ok

 

[Jacqueline1]

Thank you . I'm other ok

Not ok

Yes I did

Not I'm not ok I'm sorry

 

[Jacqueline1]

No zoo

 

[Gs172003]

No zoo

Call a women's shelter

 

[Gs172003]

No zoo

They will help you with everything you need

 

[mamachick]

I just got off phone with domestic violence line tonight. I am having terrible insomnia that I will regret in the morning. Have been very sick since Thursday and in ER twice. Likely flu symptoms but...along the way, they accidentally found some bad news that has led me to confusion again. I get like that and then think maybe I am the problem in the relationship. Because of being sick, husband showed up in ER and I declined his driving me home, but talked to him this evening and he told me that when the fight occurred 2 weeks ago, he was sorry, blah blah blah stuff and went on to say that when he was upstairs and he heard me and 2 friends laughing and having such a good time in the living room, he felt like the biggest looser and the dumbest man on earth with us laughing and carrying on. I asked him if he thought we were laughing at him and he said he didn't and tried to explain. I paid attention to my thoughts and I felt sorry for him. SORRY, yes I feel sorry then feel guilty then keep my butt stuck! Compounded with my own fear of making it on my own and new chronic health problems ahead of me, the monkey in my head has been chattering. Of course when he didn't get the response he wanted, then he began recapping the argument blaming me entirely even though I have it on audio and video.. Im left lifeless and exhausted and thinking maybe this is all I get and am where I belong. That is how I ended up calling the DV hotline. I guess I needed some reassurance. What came to mind is that song...I get knocked down, I get up again, no one can keep me down...which it use to be....then up slower,....then I quit getting up. We all gotta get back up and dust off and go again until we get it right.

I hope it is ok to post this here as I did not want to start another thread and didn't know where to share this. Just feeling really anxious about sticking with my decisions but need to more than ever. I can see his manipulation and still feel pity, blame myself, and feel guilt.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@brat17 I'm so sorry that you're in this situation. I just don't understand the reasons that you, or any other woman stays in situations like this. I'm not judging, really, I'm not. I was caught in basically the same with my ex-husband, abuse, manipulation, shaming me. Blah, blah. But it didn't take me long to figure it out and file for divorce. I had a young teen daughter at the time too. Went on welfare, food stamps the whole nine yards.

My sister to this day, lives with her abusive husband and has for over 40 yrs. I honestly don't understand why, and I may never.

I hope that someday, you can find the strength, emotionally and physically to leave and not look back.. no one, male or female should ever put up with abuse from another human being. Take car care of yourself....

 

[Gs172003]

I just got off phone with domestic violence line tonight. I am having terrible insomnia that I will regre...

I'm sorry

 

[Jacqueline1]

@Jacqueline1 Please don't stop posting, please don't think that you are dumping on u...

Thank you

 

[Jacqueline1]

NO @Jacqueline1 It's NOT better than being strangled, raped and locked in a room fo...

I love all the posts but yours I've read and reread and really have taken it to heart. I thank you for being such a guardian angels. those were all words needed to be heard