Internal Landscape

[eunoia]

I have complex PTSD, which is on the dissociative spectrum. I am wondering how usual is it to have an internal landscape/world, with CPTSD? I know I do not have DID, not certain about OSDD, right now I would think no.

 

[pixel]

Can you please elaborate on 'inner world'?

The inner world of an extrovert is different to that of an introvert.
The inner world of someone with autism is different to the one who isn't on the spectrum.

In its everyday meaning, inner world is simply referring to the mind - thoughts, feelings, or memories. This is something you ought to be in possession of, irrespective of whether you have PTSD or not.

 

[eunoia]

The only place I can find what I am talking about happens to be on a DID site.

" These internal worlds, which are also known as inner worlds or headspaces, can range in size and complexity. A system with only a couple of alters might have an internal room in which alters that are internally active, awake, and aware might manifest. Others might expand this living room to include doors to bedrooms for groups of or individual alters. Some systems might have an entire house that is fully equipped with everything that the alters would feel that they need. "

can't post the link , but it comes up under DID research.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

I used to have DID. I had a strong inner world such as you describe. I still have an inner landscape/world, although it is less complex than it used to be.

The only people I know with inner worlds have or had DID. I don't mean to imply your situation is impossible; I've just never heard of such a thing.

 

[pixel]

I still don't understand what you're requesting.

So my experience with DID, is i have got an inner dwelling with a main central room that when people go in there, they become co-conscious. They can see what's happening, what the body is doing, and talk to each other. When they leave that particular room, they slip to unconsciousness (perhaps like people going from a living area to their bedroom?) I can see the room, describe it's details exactly the same way if I closed my eyes and described the physical room i am sitting in.

My DID dwelling is a different... i dunno...realm?.. to where my mind lives. Your mind is just in your head somewhere. lol *shrugs* That little voice we all have, the voice of thought and reason. I dont know about feelings, someone else can tell us where they live. But the MIND is not in a place, its an element of consciousness.

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

I wonder if the question is about landscape as landscape, instead of landscape populated with people.

For me, my inner landscape is still pretty vague at this point (others seem to understand it, but I'm kept in the dark). But whenever I do see it, the others are there inside of it. Landscape seems to be built FOR the inhabitants, and I think this is what makes it unique to multiples.

 

[Friday]

Not DID, here.
PTSD, yes.
Complex trauma, yes.
CPTSD, no idea.

I have countless universes & spinning galaxies & world upon world -mostly- locked behind my eyes & in my mind; but they're -mostly- imagination, populated for sure, but not people'd with alters. I don't believe this is pathology of any kind. Just creativity.

Conversely, I have a lot of different headspaces I operate out of, here in the real / waking world, but they're all just me-in-different-rules-roles. I compartmentalize like a motherf*cker. Except when I'm symptomatic. Then everything's a proper shattered mess. :wtf: And it can either be impossible to shift gears, or I shift into the wrong gear. While the first is very internal / facing inwards, this second piece here is very external / facing outwards.

 

[eunoia]

The only people I know with inner worlds have or had DID. I don't mean to imply your situation is impossible; I've just never heard of such a thing.

This is exactly why I am wondering.

I still don't understand what you're requesting.

If it is usual for someone with complex PTSD to have an internal landscape, so far I've only come across it on the DID site.

by internal landscape, I do mean the actual thing, house, garden, trees, etc. I would be inclined to think it's my active imagination, but I haven't created it. I don't know what is there until it opens up, I don't have access to many areas, and sometimes I am completely shut out.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Oh shit! I just found it. It has trees and is warm and sunny near the bay.

 

[Ronin]

IMHO it's a creativity thing.

Writers & plurals (/D.I.D. people) just happen to talk about it more than is the usual standard for talking of these things, because they're very aware of how their thoughts work / need it to be able to cruise through life &/or work.

It's also fairly common with Aspies / people on the autism spectrum, that I know of. Not 'just' a D.I.D. thing.

Personally, D.I.D., and whatever my 'headspace' is several blends of reality, dreams and fiction. I can usually tell how badly symptomatic - and to what disorder - I am by it (& how it is, or is not, accessible.). Unless I'm full of shit aka bad decompensated and needing assistance. Or at least finding the right darn alter & their right darn mindset for getting through the mess at hand.

 

[BuckarooBanzai]

I would be inclined to think it's my active imagination, but I haven't created it.

Oh, but you did create it. You just don't remember. :)

I wouldn't worry about the DID aspect. Whatever you 'have' is what you 'have'. If it's DID, your therapist will let you know.

 

[whiteraven]

Oh, but you did create it. You just don't remember. :)

I wouldn't worry about the DID aspect. Whatever you 'have' is what you 'have'. If it's DID, your therapist will let you know.

Yes. Not sure who else would have created what is in your head. LOL

I'm DID and have a very complex inner landscape (which, incidentally, can totally be manipulated), but I also have an active imagination and have a separate sort of "world" that is like everybody else's, I would imagine, that is full of daydreams and thoughts and worries and stuff.