Don't Belong Anywhere

[1234567891011]

I fit in no where. My oddities make me unappealing to be around. I don't want to exist.

 

[Glara]

My sufferer has said things like that about himself to me. I don't see him that way at all.

 

[DMA]

I feel the same, but why do you? What are some of the self-destructive things you've done that stem from your PTSD? I have been dwelling in th past about my self destructive behaviors when I was in the worst phase of my PTSD and it would be nice to hear someone else has had similar experience.

 

[1234567891011]

1/2 pint of everclear 191 proof
.....no grape juice

 

[DMA]

I blacked out and woke up in the hospital after I got invited as a date to a fraternity social. I sabotaged myself by doing that. This was three years ago and after that I deleted all my social media and isolated myself. Why do you say you dont want to exist?

 

[Sharon Danger]

I fit in no where. My oddities make me unappealing to be around. I don't want to exist.

I know this feeling. I also know it will pass - and you will see sunshine again. Don't give up, there's so many people who you have yet to meet who will love your oddities.

 

[1234567891011]

Why because people scare me. I try to trust. Often big mistake. I don't feel like trying anymore. Been trying for over two decades....Nothing helps, and the shrinks don't get it.

 

[Sharon Danger]

Why because people scare me. I try to trust. Often big mistake. I don't feel like trying anymore....

People scare me too. But occasionally you'll meet a really genuine person who does understand. Don't give up, you're probably very, very, very tired, and it's hard to have any energy at all for anybody. And I mean mentally tired. Give your poor brain a rest.

 

[DMA]

I understand, I regret telling people about my trauma, its hard for me to let anyone in. People think I'm a bitch or stuck up because I don't talk to anyone but its the PTSD, they just dont know that

 

[1234567891011]

Nothing makes it better, nightmares are the worst. Boyfriend left, said I was a spaz. Told people private things, any time we have problems he would say...the cheese has fallen off the cracker instead of trying to comfort me. Made me go places he knew I was uncomfortable, and then would make a big scene....like "look...told you she was nuts"....so embarrassed to be me. I hate me. I just want to disappear.

 

[Sharon Danger]

Nothing makes it better, nightmares are the worst. Boyfriend left, said I was a spaz. Told people...

wow, who needs a boyfriend like that! You didn't deserve any of that! I hope you meet a man who actually has some empathy soon!

 

[1234567891011]

I am on my last leg. Not much left of me to love or anything. I will be gone. Nothing helps anymore. My life is in tatters and no support system.