*sigh*
I don't f*cking know..this may be the wrong thread, maybe not..i sort of wish I'd never 'met' you..it seems so goddamn f*cking far fetched everything you say. I don't understand you..it's clear that if what you're saying is true, then you are in an abusive relationship. Absolute no f*cking doubt about that. Your partner is controlling, possessive, jealous, puts you down, accuses you of shit you say you're not doing or interested in doing. And yet, you too are a bit of a head f*ck yourself. you do play mind games with people..whether intentionally or not, you have f*cking hurt me with your actions. I had thought you'd make a nice friend. I have now changed my mind. And won't be bothering with you anymore.
You're clearly a smart person so I don't get why you would stay so long in an abusive relationship, ask for advice about it, then remain in it after saying you likely wouldn't and were SO f*cking upset about it. I would have been there for you, purely as a friend if you wanted, but you didn't make any effort back and i'm not one for chasing after people. If you can't see that you're in an abusive relationship (providing everything you've said is true)..well, I don't know....what the f*ck are others who care about you supposed to do?! I thought to someone smart like you it would be glaringly f*cking obvious? I don't know if you know how f*cking frustrating it is for others to not be able to help you?!
It's pretty obvious too that you (again whether intentionally or not) use people for sex and then quite swiftly move on to someone else without seeming to give a f*ck about doing so? That was clear from your words several times. That you didn't give a shit, in spite of your exes actually sounding quite decent. Some more than decent.
I do not want to hurt your feelings or scare you about your partner or confront you and seem like 'the bad one' in this so I guess that's why I put it here. It hurts to stand by and watch you being hurt.. being abused emotionally and psychologically. Others have actually agreed with me. They even told you you should probably leave. Physically, nothing is stopping you leaving this person. You aren't living together and you could get away easily.
I guess you probably got love-bombed when you had the conversation with your partner a while ago so that you would stay. That makes me so f*cking sad and so f*cking angry. I feel so f*cking helpless. If I was a relative I guess i'd likely be screaming at you right now to leave this person you're with. And yet, your relatives haven't even met them after more than a year of you two being together :banghead:
I feel like a totally shit human being for deciding finally that I won't speak to you anymore.
I guess that's why I keep trying to convince myself you're lying about it all to play mind games and get attention.
Shit, well, it's likely all true.
That's f*cking horrendous and I am scared for you.
I feel shit for not being brave enough to be completely f*cking blunt with you and telling you to get out now before it gets worse.
I see you making the same mistakes I did and yeah theres transference but what you're going through right now? Is SO f*ckING similar to how the first few years my life were with my abusive ex.
I'd actually appreciate other people's advice here..would you lot turn your back on someone like I've just described? Or would you be blunt and tell them to leave and point out ALL the reasons why?
Not sure why i'm f*cking asking..i have no more energy to give to this..it has completely messed up my head and I can't, I reached my stress cup, it's f*cking full to the top worrying about said person.
f*ck.
