Why do you choose to stay alive?

[SpacemanSpiff]

I wasn't gonna reply to this thread cuz I feel icky today but the thing that keeps me going at this moment is the drive to create. Native American Flute, poetry, woodburning, whittling, concertina...non of this will work without me. I try. That's all I can do.

 

[trying2movefwd]

My kids, my cat, my faith, and my sister. We lost a cousin to depression, it was horrible. My younger sister and I lost our Mom when she was 15 (Cancer) and her Dad passed several years ago(heart attack). She has no children and we are as close or closer than best friends. I think of my children and my sister's pain they would have to go through...and you know...pets, no one understands them like their owners.

 

[Teasel]

A) Because I want to. Even though I've seen little to no evidence of this in my life personally, I have this wierd "rational" belief that it's possible to heal and change and whatever the f*ck it takes to be able to live again.
B) I've seen what extroadinarily awful damage you can do to yourself and have to live through via multiple failed attempts my mother made to end her pain. They did not end her pain they increased it many many many times over.

 

[Rani G2]

Its hard today, to stay here alive. Good to read others. :-(

 

[Lost Marbles]

My daughter.

 

[cupfish]

too chickenshit

 

[whiteraven]

My cats.

 

[Lost Marbles]

too chickenshit

Before my daughter was born, fear of failure, I failed at everything, why would I succeed in death (suicide)? except for one time, some neighbors saved me before I succeeded, see, I failed.

 

[Deleted member 37868]

I’ve been battling these damn suicidal thoughts lately...

I could focus on all the reasons why t...

Idk, it’s sounds like you have some strong reasons to stay alive, please do! For me I’ve always felt like suicide is just not an option, I think about it and wish for it, and sometimes really really want to. For me it’s the what if’s, or better said the possibilities and possible future outcomes, I’m to curious, I have to see the rest plot, I guess that’s what I’m such a bookworm and genuinely love university, even when I hate it, so...... Curiosity? Haha did not kill this cat

Omg I guess im more baked than I thought I was.... please understand my half finishing sentences, I thought the words, I guess I didn’t write them tho

 

[mumstheword]

You make perfect sense to me, and I haven't had a toke in 7 years now. I totally agree and am in the same place. Also a self-confessed bookworm and uni student, although I'm having a break due to severe symptoms at the moment. In regards to ...

Omg I guess im more baked than I thought I was.... please understand my half finishing

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I want to live now. For me. To be able to enjoy all of the good days that come to me. I love it when I feel good and feel alive and it really helps so much on the bad days for me to just hang on to the next day when I have a chance to feel good again. I hope that this makes sense.

 

[Lost Marbles]

I hope that this makes sense.

It reminds me of something my late grandfather told me when I was young; "Bad times come and go," he said, "the trick is to enjoy the good times while they last and to weather the bad times because the good times will return." He said this to me right about the time he passed away.