I am crawling out of my skin with hypervigilance!

[ms spock]

I am having a terribly stressful day! I am so anxious. I really have to calm things down. I am really crawling out of my skin. Feeling feelings is so crappy! I am feeling so crappy! It is horrible! I am doing maladjusted daydreaming for all the worst case scenarios for my working life! I am ruminating on it! I am feeling so bad about myself, and I am so certain that everyone is thinking badly of me as well. Everyone is going to have a go at me and bully me. I am so scared of taking the next steps.

 

[EveHarrington]

Can you take a time out to engage in self care?

I absolutely hate that skin crawling anxiety feeling. It really is the worst.

I woke up with the skin crawling feeling today. I spent much of the day outside in the snow and it helped, but the skin crawling feeling is back now that I’m inside again.

Sending you hugs. Or if hugs would feel bad, sending you well wishes.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I have been crawling out of my skin too. Today I watched “Tara Brach on Real but Not True: Freeing Ourselves from Harmful Beliefs” on YouTube.
It brought me to the place where I can put my hands on my heart and tell myself, “It’s OK dear, you won’t always be feeling like this” I never learned how to self soothe and her videos are so helpful. I hope you can return to the middle of the pendulum soon. Self care. I care about you too.

 

[ms spock]

So this is not easy at the moment. I am struggling quite a bit.

 

[mumstheword]

It will pass. Breath, focus on ease of breath and paying more mind to your breath than to your thoughts. Might help?
Can.You put some music on and focus on that instead? Maybe quietly sing along?

 

[KwanYingirl]

Can you take a self compassion break? A 30 second meditation of doing nothing? Sometimes I take a hit shower and go to bed and take a restorative nap.

 

[ms spock]

I am doing things on and off. It is a really demanding time at the moment! I do do some meditation, some musical instrument playing, some breathing, some breaks, and then it all comes back to me.

Gillian Welch - Hard Times

 

[ms spock]

Can you take a time out to engage in self care?
Sending you hugs. Or if hugs would feel bad, sending you well wishes.

Thanks!

I did go out for a cup of tea with a friend!

I do something for a bit, and then the overwhelm just rushes back in.

 

[ms spock]

Today I watched “Tara Brach on Real but Not True: Freeing Ourselves from Harmful Beliefs” on YouTube.

Thanks for the reminder! It does help to be reminded.

I care about you too.

Thanks

 

[Fadeaway]

That feeling is the worst. I wish I had advice for you as I have found the only thing that gets me out of that is benzos and a good night sleep. Of course sleep is near impossible while in that state. Just know I empathize with you and wish I could make it go away.

 

[Overcoming]

@Disco Dancing Queen I know that nothing is a quick fix, but I have found the "Insight Timer" app particularly helpful when feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and all out of sorts. It is a meditation app with a timer, guided meditations, music, or even talks to listen to. It is connected to other users so that you can see who is meditating simultaneously and send messages of encouragement after the fact. It is not always what I need, but has kept me from acting impulsively several times. Sending love your way.

 

[KwanYingirl]

@Disco Dancing Queen i, too, have been fractured lately. Sudden loss of a dear friend, abandoned by my shrink, reacting to noxious fumes in my therapists office that makes it an unsafe place. In a word, overwhelmed.
I’ve been watching some Tara Brach and this one has been particularly helpful. It comes back to the basics but with her unique and calming style. Perhaps it will help you settle a bit:
“Healing Trauma: The Light Shines Through the Broken Places” on YouTube. I’m sorry that I can’t figure out how to post a link to take you right to it. I’m holding you in my heart and hope you can feel the tenderness of the forum folk.