I am crawling out of my skin with hypervigilance!

[KwanYingirl]

How are you doing today @Disco Dancing Queen ?

 

[Gs172003]

Is that why I'm so effing mad?

 

[ms spock]

@KwanYingirl up early to drive up to Brisbane to teach today. I am still not quite able to get out of hypervigilance but I am approaching it. It is really hard. I can see that some of my maladaptive daydreaming is making this harder than it needs to be.

Is that why I'm so effing mad?

I am not sure what you mean?

Also wondering if coming off meds, stopping the coping technique of food and returning to work might be a bit much to so all at once. X

No - they will all assist each other once I get moving. It is just getting moving that is the tricky bit! When you work and have the routine it really assists with the eating issues, and the not being on medication issues. I have been dragging my feet on all this for a couple of years now. I can do it, it is just hard for me, if you know what I mean.

 

[intothelight]

One foot in front of the other and you've got this! :tup:

 

[KwanYingirl]

I know what you mean!! I so want off meds, but I just can’t. I thought I was doing ok with my sleeping pills, but ran out early and caught royal hell from the pharmacy. Well, I just stripped my bedding to wash it and there were about 10 sleeping pills under my duvet. I have no idea how I did that, but I did!!

 

[Gs172003]

@KwanYingirl up early to drive up to Brisbane to teach today. I am still...

Sorry I was pretty irritated when I wrote that. Was just wondering if hypervigilence will do that.

 

[ms spock]

I think it can @Zoogal! I really think it can!

So this is hard, but I am doing it!

 

[KwanYingirl]

@Disco Dancing Queen close your eyes and picture all the allies you have around you. Not just us, but everyone you know that supports you. Now imagine we are connected by invisible cords that we use to ground you when you float away. Just one of the gifts of having allies

 

[ms spock]

Still struggling to come out of hypervigiliance - it is really an up and down thing.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I hit like, but that doesn’t mean I like that you’re struggling, but that I validate what you’re feeling. It is crummy indeed.

 

[ms spock]

It is worth persisting with this @KwanYingirl, even though it is hard.

 

[ms spock]

I think that one of the things that I need to do is to make friends outside of mental illness communites as I am overwhelmed by other people's problems. This makes it really hard for me to be grounded. I booked into seeing a friend in Sydney that I now really regret organising to see, because it really seems that she is always is in crisis. I made a mistake.

I feel trapped by other people's craziness and maladaptive behaviours!