Can't cope anymore.

[shimmerz]

Nobody irl seems to be listening.

Are you affiliated with a support group at all? It sounds to me like the core of this right now for you is nobody validating what is happening to you. Are you in a larger urban centre where there might be meetup groups or support for people with PTSD? That would be a great start.

 

[LilyRose]

Dear LilyRose, I hear you, and I understand. I was there. I had a very specific plan to end my life. N...

Thank you for your reply.
Im sorry that all happend to you, but glad you are doing better.
I don't really have a plan, i don't really care how it ends. But also, i don't want to. I am fighting it. I asked for help but have to wait for a few weeks for an answer. Don't know how to get through them. But i have no choice. If i lose control , i will call my doc. I promise.

Are you affiliated with a support group at all? It sounds to me like the core of this right now for y...

There is no support group here. And i am not ready or interested in that right now.
Its more about not having control over my ptsd/tbi symptoms, i've been pushed and triggered alot. I am so tired, and need to slow down and get help. But they wont listen so i am not getting it, not fast enough anyway. I've had anxiety, panic atacks at work, i've almost passed out at work a few times too. I see options to end it everywhere and it scares me.