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mariah90
I was sexually assaulted/coerced by a friend earlier this year. It was an awful night. I was belligerently drunk, I don't remember all of it and I recently found out that there are more girls I'm friends with/go to school with that have also been taken advantage of physically by this person. I don't know what to do with this information or how to go about dealing with it because he was my friend and I don't want to ruin his life by "telling on him." I'm angry, and I don't know how to stop blaming myself for what happened because I was drunk. But I told him I was tired, I told him I wanted to stop, I told him it hurt and he didn't listen. I can't stop thinking about it or other times we had sex that he did the same things. I'm scared of having sex with anyone else because of it and I've found that I'm withdrawn from certain situations because of it, I'm more depressed than I used to be and I don't find comfort in things I used to. I need to be validated somehow in my feelings because my perpetrator is such a member of my community I feel I don't have many to talk about it with.