littleoc
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I am utterly exhausted, so I was hoping y’all could be my brain for a bit. :P
I’m going to shorten this a lot because I doubt you need a lot of details, but I can give more detail later if it would help any.
I moved away from home into a dorm room after a University offered it to me in exchange for working for them. It has not gone particularly well. Long story short, the room has no power anymore and so I’m only going in there for showers and getting stuff. My food and some of my medication are all in a different building (my fridge was useless), the proctor claimed I could be displaced for up to two weeks.
I found the head resident who was much less of a dick than the proctor (and much less on drugs...) who told me that the wait time could be shortened to until tomorrow. She also told me that she could unlock another room to let me stay in, so I wouldn’t be in the common room.
I thought that was awesome. But an hour later I went into the room, and put some stuff down. I tried to get comfortable. Next thing I know, service dog is leaning on me and I can hear myself humming Mozart. Weird dissociation of some kind, I guess.
This has been a very hard week for me. I am guessing that I’m just too overwhelmed to deal with triggers all of a sudden? I put my stuff back in the common room, because at least I’ve slept on couches before.
I do have some kind of adjustment disorder but I have also been “kidnapped” (therapist insists this definitely applies to me) and I just can’t handle moving a lot.
I brought all my stuff back down and will just try to be chill. Holidays are over so I should be able to get some privacy, I guess.
I’m extremely upset about all this. I hate this place. They put poor people in the shit dorm that can’t handle basic weather and anyone willing to pay the exact amount they will earn in working for the university get a nice place to live.
I’m very worried for my dog’s health. My A/C does okay though, but I’m not supposed to have it because “they offered the good dorm to those willing to pay more.” The new room they wanted to move me into didn’t even have outlets for fans.
What should I be doing? I can’t be this f*cked up emotionally right now, I have work tomorrow. My vacation has made me more exhausted than rested. There’s too much going on.
Can someone help me think of what to do next? Most likely, in terms of coping skills and changing my perspective? Somehow being less frustrated at myself?
I hope you’re having a better week than I am, or at least not worse than mine. Thanks for stopping by
I’m going to shorten this a lot because I doubt you need a lot of details, but I can give more detail later if it would help any.
I moved away from home into a dorm room after a University offered it to me in exchange for working for them. It has not gone particularly well. Long story short, the room has no power anymore and so I’m only going in there for showers and getting stuff. My food and some of my medication are all in a different building (my fridge was useless), the proctor claimed I could be displaced for up to two weeks.
I found the head resident who was much less of a dick than the proctor (and much less on drugs...) who told me that the wait time could be shortened to until tomorrow. She also told me that she could unlock another room to let me stay in, so I wouldn’t be in the common room.
I thought that was awesome. But an hour later I went into the room, and put some stuff down. I tried to get comfortable. Next thing I know, service dog is leaning on me and I can hear myself humming Mozart. Weird dissociation of some kind, I guess.
This has been a very hard week for me. I am guessing that I’m just too overwhelmed to deal with triggers all of a sudden? I put my stuff back in the common room, because at least I’ve slept on couches before.
I do have some kind of adjustment disorder but I have also been “kidnapped” (therapist insists this definitely applies to me) and I just can’t handle moving a lot.
I brought all my stuff back down and will just try to be chill. Holidays are over so I should be able to get some privacy, I guess.
I’m extremely upset about all this. I hate this place. They put poor people in the shit dorm that can’t handle basic weather and anyone willing to pay the exact amount they will earn in working for the university get a nice place to live.
I’m very worried for my dog’s health. My A/C does okay though, but I’m not supposed to have it because “they offered the good dorm to those willing to pay more.” The new room they wanted to move me into didn’t even have outlets for fans.
What should I be doing? I can’t be this f*cked up emotionally right now, I have work tomorrow. My vacation has made me more exhausted than rested. There’s too much going on.
Can someone help me think of what to do next? Most likely, in terms of coping skills and changing my perspective? Somehow being less frustrated at myself?
I hope you’re having a better week than I am, or at least not worse than mine. Thanks for stopping by