Keen
MyPTSD Pro
I don't want to live in fear, but it feels as if I only have 2 choices:
1. Somehow make myself decide "who cares" and just live my life the way I want to, not worrying about whether my abusers may end up trying to hurt me again or kill me, and potentially exposing myself to the risk of getting harmed or killed (which I don't feel able to do)
2. Continue to stay on guard, avoid places they might be, live way more isolated than I want to, but at least feel some sense of control and safety (which is miserable)
I feel really defeated by this.
Does anyone else feel like this?
Has anyone found any solution or other option?
1. Somehow make myself decide "who cares" and just live my life the way I want to, not worrying about whether my abusers may end up trying to hurt me again or kill me, and potentially exposing myself to the risk of getting harmed or killed (which I don't feel able to do)
2. Continue to stay on guard, avoid places they might be, live way more isolated than I want to, but at least feel some sense of control and safety (which is miserable)
I feel really defeated by this.
Does anyone else feel like this?
Has anyone found any solution or other option?