littleoc
MyPTSD Pro
I have a strange question.
I am rather scared to go to see therapists in public places because I am afraid of confrontation.
What is the therapist supposed to do, and can a therapist protect you, if another client attacks you or if someone you know is waiting for you in the waiting room with intentions of controlling you or attacking you?
Can a therapist protect you, and should they?
I can't picture a safe scenario in my head. I just see my therapist getting hurt and me being responsible.
I am thinking that this is a mix of intrusive thoughts getting mixed up with a few terrifying past experiences I've had. Including my father attacking school employees, my mother, and etc, and my ex sitting in waiting rooms so I would remember sessions better so I would tell her every detail of therapy, and of times (Especially in hospitals) where I was attacked by other patients or witnessed patients attacking other patients, or hurting themselves suddenly.
I am trying to think of how to feel safe when with my therapist, and how to not think I need to be alert to danger to either protect her from physical harm or protect her from the possibility of seeing something terrible. It is such a strong feeling that I am keeping several secrets because I am afraid of disturbing her and seeing her break down in any way. That was a danger for the past-me.
I tried the method of imagining something silly saving the day, which generally works for intrusive thoughts, but it doesn't work for this issue.
Has this happened to you? Do you have any advice?
Thanks!
I am rather scared to go to see therapists in public places because I am afraid of confrontation.
What is the therapist supposed to do, and can a therapist protect you, if another client attacks you or if someone you know is waiting for you in the waiting room with intentions of controlling you or attacking you?
Can a therapist protect you, and should they?
I can't picture a safe scenario in my head. I just see my therapist getting hurt and me being responsible.
I am thinking that this is a mix of intrusive thoughts getting mixed up with a few terrifying past experiences I've had. Including my father attacking school employees, my mother, and etc, and my ex sitting in waiting rooms so I would remember sessions better so I would tell her every detail of therapy, and of times (Especially in hospitals) where I was attacked by other patients or witnessed patients attacking other patients, or hurting themselves suddenly.
I am trying to think of how to feel safe when with my therapist, and how to not think I need to be alert to danger to either protect her from physical harm or protect her from the possibility of seeing something terrible. It is such a strong feeling that I am keeping several secrets because I am afraid of disturbing her and seeing her break down in any way. That was a danger for the past-me.
I tried the method of imagining something silly saving the day, which generally works for intrusive thoughts, but it doesn't work for this issue.
Has this happened to you? Do you have any advice?
Thanks!