What does my body do when I lose time? What is "in charge" during that?

[Cypress]

I love this idea of using tokens to refresh memory. I’m going to try it. I can see how once you develop a habit of recording - whether with photos or notes - that you would continue to record even if you are out of pocket.

 

[TruthSeeker]

On memory v magic tricks... journaling helps. Not just written journals, but photojournaling, calendars, voice notes, drawing... anything that keeps a bit running tally of what you’ve been up to // allows you to “rehearse” the memory (technical term, for real not sarcasm, that helps to move memories from short term into long term, and refreshes long term to keep it easily accessible)... by flipping through your tokens later, recalling events that otherwise simply flitter away.

It’s one of MANY reasons I used to have at least one camera attached to my body at nearly all times (my purse is STILL a camera bag, even though my photography equipment was smashed years ago). It’s a bit of a fun brain-game when the f*ck is that??? -a binkie on the cracked asphalt in the rain- oh. Right. Shopping trip to Trader Joe’s. Their parking lot. Bought orange chicken, mochi ice cream, and had a bit of a chat with the violinist.

There are still a lot of times that I’m just like... huh. Well that sounds like me, at least?... no recollection of writing something whatsoever. Or taking that series of pics. Or scribbling that drawing. But using tokens to rehearse memories refreshes about 80% of my otherwise lost time.

That actually makes sense. Do you just randomly collect “self-data” each day? May I ask what provokes the need to capture a particular moment on camera? Time is like sand in my world- it’s like it runs thru my fingers and the end of the day comes and I have to work super hard to recount the day and it’s jappenings!

 

[Friday]

May I ask what provokes the need to capture a particular moment on camera?

I don’t want to forget it. Or it’s interesting. Or it tells a story. Or sometimes just to see what it would look like. Every once in awhile in place of other emotions (Get mad? Or get the camera? Camera.)

Very very occasionally, just to f*ck with people. I’m mostly thinking of when my ex had me followed by a PI Firm. I was curious what their instructions were (and how much money my ex was prepared to spend) so I drove a few thousand miles, made something of an affair of taking a picture of a drinking fountain, and drove back. :sneaky: But that’s hardly the only time I’ve done something like that. Just what comes to mind af the moment. I’ve still got that pic around, somewhere. It’s artistically uninteresting, but it reminds me of when I took something annoying, and made it fun.

Do you just randomly collect “self-data” each day?

More when I start losing swaths of time, than when I have perfect recall.

It’s one of the ways this site is useful to me... as I’m here, most days.

 

[TruthSeeker]

@Friday You made me feel more normal w my own crazy x family! And what’s great, you admit to what I haven’t! Bro had “friends” follow me, take photos, intimidate me. I always drove the long way around, posed, smiled, and waved for the cameras and their telescopic lenses to lighten stress, and to think they succeeded in intimidating me, then openly attacked w a different kind of bullets-they called ME crazy and I wonder why- maybe a reflection . Finally creepy shit slowed when I fought back w my telescopic lens and humor!

 

[Friday]

@Wilbur You might be interested in this thread Long Term Effects Of Stalking?

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[Ronin]

I love this idea of using tokens to refresh memory.

Or collecting things. :sneaky:

Daily use objects, interesting natural memorabilia, scraps to build something of for later, scraps just because heck, funny as hell, coins because always handy, ... the sort of thing.

When not feeling like journaling by words or images at all, or where the situation just ain’t fun for it.

 

[Cypress]

Daily use objects, interesting natural memorabilia,

Do you find when you see that rock or leaf in your pocket that it triggers the memory and time associated with it or is it just like - WTH is this thing?

 

[TruthSeeker]

Do you find when you see that rock or leaf in your pocket that it triggers the memory and time associated with it or is it just like - WTH is this thing?

@Wilbur You might be interested in this thread Long Term Effects Of Stalking?

If you’d like to add to it, as it’s currently locked (or any other thread that’s been closed due to lack of activity), simply use Contact Us & link the thread in question.

Laugh. That link immediately got my interest, but then I immediately thought that I couldn’t post- somebody be looking- then it would start again. Stalking creates what I call justified paranoia.

 

[Ronin]

WTH is this thing?

Snort. Both. But even the WTF moments are useful / learning time by the what is missing and for any reasons for that is still some way of tracking it. Like: Right, so someone here really dislikes black stones, but dandelions are a go all over, care to share whyy? sort of thing.

 

[HealingInProcess]

It's hard when you're stalked. I had that happen to me as a child and I believe it continues but it could be PTSD type hallucinations.

 

[TruthSeeker]

No, these were not hallucinations in my case but I did get super suspicious of everything for a long while. In this case, I used photography to keep a record (back to thread topic) so I have proof of what I did and they really did to me. Knowing my family intentionally was out to hurt me, try to emotionally cripple me, and these weren't hallucinations I was relieving but a very sad and hurtful thing happening to me by those theoretically I should have been able to trust. But I don't need that kind of family-unauthentic, manipulative, righteous, lying to themselves and to me. I look at the photos where my friend and I are having a good time on my birthday, and I'm grateful. I am lucky to have one friend and her family who love me, say they love me, and act like it. But with crazy family, I took tons of photos. They really did help me realize that my hear and now was a crazy time....and yes....I have PTSD after effect, but it wasn't all created or started in my head. Photos are great for tracking time and events!

 

[whiteraven]

I did a few eeg and they came back clean. You may want to consider asking doctor about whats happening and rule out epilepsy.

Just one note. You can have epilepsy and still have normal EEG.