Thank you for the kind thoughts and words. I've had God do wonderfully kind and healing things that rebuilt my trust, showed He cared. Some people did come to know the Lord on our trip, probably in spite of us, so that was good.
It's because of Him that different areas are healed in me, now. No therapist, drug, medical procedure could've done what He did to heal those areas, one or two quite miraculously...speaking as one who has tried all the above. And He preserved me in various other situations while still vulnerable and trying to heal. I still have just one area left where still feels like knife in chest, but I have hope it will be gone. Finding things to thank Him for and praise helps me.