Mee
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I am no longer suicidal, at all, but I really find it difficult all though I have a very lucky life, to actively want to live. That part of me just broke and isn’t (yet) fixed since the trauma.
When discussing with the few who I have discussed it they say ‘aren’t you glad you didn’t succeed?’ And I smile and nod because it’s polite; but truthfully I don’t really care apart from it would have made life horrid for my husband for a while and I think he would have missed me for a very long time.
Perhaps it’s because I am agnostic, perhaps it’s because if I have any spirituality it leans buddies but I eat , ( and have reared my own) meat that I don’t see assisted suicide with the horror some do.
Right now my best friend’s mother is suffering a terrible decline with dementia. Truly awful. Her every day is tortured. And there is no way she can consent to assisted suicide, yet she has no lucidity, is tortured by Lewy body hallucinations. It sickens me that I can provide for my pets better at there end of life.
I have a DNR.
When discussing with the few who I have discussed it they say ‘aren’t you glad you didn’t succeed?’ And I smile and nod because it’s polite; but truthfully I don’t really care apart from it would have made life horrid for my husband for a while and I think he would have missed me for a very long time.
Perhaps it’s because I am agnostic, perhaps it’s because if I have any spirituality it leans buddies but I eat , ( and have reared my own) meat that I don’t see assisted suicide with the horror some do.
Right now my best friend’s mother is suffering a terrible decline with dementia. Truly awful. Her every day is tortured. And there is no way she can consent to assisted suicide, yet she has no lucidity, is tortured by Lewy body hallucinations. It sickens me that I can provide for my pets better at there end of life.
I have a DNR.