RubyBlue
Policy Enforcement
Otherwise known as codependency on steroids.
I feel this deep sense of needing to “fix” all of the things wrong. I know this has got to be related to the fact that I was always the fixer growing up and even now. I’m the one who settles fights, gives advice, is almost entirely depended on to right any wrongs in the family. And at this point I don’t know how not to. It’s so ingrained. It comes out when talking to friends, coworkers, bosses. If someone is upset (doesn’t matter if I caused it or even have any power to change it) it becomes my job to fix it. With everything going on that drive has been heightened and I feel powerless and I don’t know what to do with myself or how to get rid of this feeling and just be okay with situations. I know I’m supposed to accept that I can’t change everything, I can’t even affect everything, but I want to. I need to. Or I’m a complete failure and don’t deserve to be here.
I feel this deep sense of needing to “fix” all of the things wrong. I know this has got to be related to the fact that I was always the fixer growing up and even now. I’m the one who settles fights, gives advice, is almost entirely depended on to right any wrongs in the family. And at this point I don’t know how not to. It’s so ingrained. It comes out when talking to friends, coworkers, bosses. If someone is upset (doesn’t matter if I caused it or even have any power to change it) it becomes my job to fix it. With everything going on that drive has been heightened and I feel powerless and I don’t know what to do with myself or how to get rid of this feeling and just be okay with situations. I know I’m supposed to accept that I can’t change everything, I can’t even affect everything, but I want to. I need to. Or I’m a complete failure and don’t deserve to be here.