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Sudden urge to run

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Wilma

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Does anyone else have the sudden urge to run from their current situation? I don't mean as in "I want to get a new life" but as in "I have to get out of here". This urge can last for anytime between a few minutes to a hours and has actually lead to me driving for 6h straight .
 
Yep. For several years I just ran with it. Order breakfast in a cafe, not even wait for it to arrive -or leave between one bite and the next- before I’ve stood up and am on a train. No plans to do so when I left that morning. Out of the city, the country, I never really knew. I just kept going until I felt like stopping, or found a reason to stop. I’ve left more apartments, flats, jobs, friends, lovers, lives behind me than I have any desire to sit down and count. And that was when I was doing marginally better than I had been, because I was willing/able to at least sorta/kinda have a life TO run away from.

It took me a long time to realize that Get out, get out NOW... or I’m done here... or f*ck this (3 very different thoughts/feelings) were all temporary things that would pass. Along with a lot of other things, that were also temporary, and would pass.

But I was very... feral... for a lot of years. My instincts said “Jump!” I didn’t ask how high, I was already in the air.
 
Yep. For several years I just ran with it. Order breakfast in a cafe, not even wait for it to arrive -or leave between one bite and the next- before I’ve stood up and am on a train. No plans to do so when I left that morning. Out of the city, the country, I never really knew. I just kept going until I felt like stopping, or found a reason to stop. I’ve left more apartments, flats, jobs, friends, lovers, lives behind me than I have any desire to sit down and count. And that was when I was doing marginally better than I had been, because I was willing/able to at least sorta/kinda have a life TO run away from.

It took me a long time to realize that Get out, get out NOW... or I’m done here... or f*ck this (3 very different thoughts/feelings) were all temporary things that would pass. Along with a lot of other things, that were also temporary, and would pass.

But I was very... feral... for a lot of years. My instincts said “Jump!” I didn’t ask how high, I was already in the air.
How did you manage to stop? Do you know the reason(s) behind the "running"? The thing is, when I try to suppress the impulse, I can't for too long. It just doesn't pass. It is there and wants to be lived so to speak.
 
I would run if I could without hesitation. The only thing that's stopping me is my flat. If I ran I'd be homeless. It took a long time to build up points to get a home. I can't through that away.
 
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