Calm in the chaos
MyPTSD Pro
I never know how to introduce myself, but I wanted to write something somewhere as I've just joined. Here seemed like a good place to do it.
It was my Birthday yesterday, I think right now I'm just lucky I don't get hangovers yet lol.
It was good actually, considering the UK is still in lockdown. I live with friends so I can have fun without breaking any rules.
They are such amazing people, I don't know why they put up with me. I think right now I just feel happy to have them.
I have a meeting tomorrow. Well, when I say I have a meeting, I mean there's a meeting going ahead in regards to me, just not including me. Professionals meeting. Ha.
Honestly I'm glad, I don't want to be involved - don't want to hear about my screwed up brain, and consequently, the screwed up situations said brain gets me in.
Plus safeguarding will be there, and that's never about anything positive.
I am dreading the outcome though. Ugh.
Anyway, why I signed up here.
I have C-PTSD (diagnosed). Honestly it f*cking sucks, and I might be moving out to live on my own (???) So I need a safe place to not feel so alone with this.
I'm a bit scared. I don't know if it's going to be a flat in the City I live in now, or in the town where all my trauma happened. I hate the fact I was born there, I hate the fact that I'm connected to that place and it makes it so f*cking hard to never think about it because the Local Authority there are still incharge of me and -
Literally I'm an adult now why TF do they still decide where I live?
And I look about 14/15. Alone. Easy target.
f*ck.
Yeah so um if you're still reading at this point. Thanks for taking the time. This is a mess, I'm a mess. Whatever.
It was my Birthday yesterday, I think right now I'm just lucky I don't get hangovers yet lol.
It was good actually, considering the UK is still in lockdown. I live with friends so I can have fun without breaking any rules.
They are such amazing people, I don't know why they put up with me. I think right now I just feel happy to have them.
I have a meeting tomorrow. Well, when I say I have a meeting, I mean there's a meeting going ahead in regards to me, just not including me. Professionals meeting. Ha.
Honestly I'm glad, I don't want to be involved - don't want to hear about my screwed up brain, and consequently, the screwed up situations said brain gets me in.
Plus safeguarding will be there, and that's never about anything positive.
I am dreading the outcome though. Ugh.
Anyway, why I signed up here.
I have C-PTSD (diagnosed). Honestly it f*cking sucks, and I might be moving out to live on my own (???) So I need a safe place to not feel so alone with this.
I'm a bit scared. I don't know if it's going to be a flat in the City I live in now, or in the town where all my trauma happened. I hate the fact I was born there, I hate the fact that I'm connected to that place and it makes it so f*cking hard to never think about it because the Local Authority there are still incharge of me and -
Literally I'm an adult now why TF do they still decide where I live?
And I look about 14/15. Alone. Easy target.
f*ck.
Yeah so um if you're still reading at this point. Thanks for taking the time. This is a mess, I'm a mess. Whatever.