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Survivor25
When I first entered therapy i told my therapist my trauma and she told me how smart I was. She also sat right by me in one of our first sessions. She was on the computer to be fair. She also growled at me one time during session.
She pushed me to know details of my sexual abuse. When I was upset and vulnerable bc the psychiatrist at the same place she worked (who always stared at my legs) terminated with me suddenly, she asked me again about my sexual abuse details even tho I told her I wasn’t comfortable talking about it. I did it anyway bc I was vulnerable and then I became upset bc I realized I didn’t actually want to say all that. I understand talking about ptsd is normal and apart of recovery but since the beginning of therapy i felt like I was being forced to talk about it before I was ready. It felt manipulative.
She also kept staring at me down there in sessions like where you going to the bathroom. I started taking more stimulants.
She told me my flashbacks wernt real and I told her I felt invalidated by the way she was treating me and she shifted blame back on me. telling me it was my fault.
When I would do something she didn’t like she would triangulate me to my abuser. She also told my abuser i was psychotic and needed to stop saying i have been abused. She also told me to hangout with my abuser and go to the park with them even tho i told her they emotionally abuse me. She would also email them personal information I shared with her about them. After this happened i had a mental breakdown
I’m a healthy weight and I’m afraid of gaining weight and she knows this and she told my psychiatrist to take me off the medications that make me loose and maintain my weight and put me on medications that make me gain weight.
She has not diagnosed me with an eating disorder and I’m far from underweight so I’m not sure what my therapist is trying to accomplish by all of this??? But this place seems sketch to me and I don’t feel like I’m being treated right? Any thoughts?
She pushed me to know details of my sexual abuse. When I was upset and vulnerable bc the psychiatrist at the same place she worked (who always stared at my legs) terminated with me suddenly, she asked me again about my sexual abuse details even tho I told her I wasn’t comfortable talking about it. I did it anyway bc I was vulnerable and then I became upset bc I realized I didn’t actually want to say all that. I understand talking about ptsd is normal and apart of recovery but since the beginning of therapy i felt like I was being forced to talk about it before I was ready. It felt manipulative.
She also kept staring at me down there in sessions like where you going to the bathroom. I started taking more stimulants.
She told me my flashbacks wernt real and I told her I felt invalidated by the way she was treating me and she shifted blame back on me. telling me it was my fault.
When I would do something she didn’t like she would triangulate me to my abuser. She also told my abuser i was psychotic and needed to stop saying i have been abused. She also told me to hangout with my abuser and go to the park with them even tho i told her they emotionally abuse me. She would also email them personal information I shared with her about them. After this happened i had a mental breakdown
I’m a healthy weight and I’m afraid of gaining weight and she knows this and she told my psychiatrist to take me off the medications that make me loose and maintain my weight and put me on medications that make me gain weight.
She has not diagnosed me with an eating disorder and I’m far from underweight so I’m not sure what my therapist is trying to accomplish by all of this??? But this place seems sketch to me and I don’t feel like I’m being treated right? Any thoughts?