mylunareclipse
MyPTSD Pro
I have never talked about my “traumatic” memories in therapy and I have been in therapy for six years!! I finally found the courage to read my therapist something about one of memories.
After I was done I felt numb and was just trying to talk a bit but I felt detached a bit. Then my therapist changed subject abruptly and wanted to talk about some random activity I was gonna do that afternoon.
I was confused and upset. I wasn’t overwhelmed so not sure why my therapist just randomly changed the subject. It’s like she was careless and was randomly looking out of the window and figuring out whether the rain was gonna stop me from doing it.
But I was in the midst of talking about one of my “traumatic” memories for the first time and felt very let down.
I have been let down before in therapy, but this time I just feel hurt and disappointedly my therapist apologized and said she missed the mark, made a mistake, she’s fallible etc but I just cannot forgive.
It’s like just because the person apologized doesn’t mean we can just move on and forgive no? I just feel hurt. How to forgive?
After I was done I felt numb and was just trying to talk a bit but I felt detached a bit. Then my therapist changed subject abruptly and wanted to talk about some random activity I was gonna do that afternoon.
I was confused and upset. I wasn’t overwhelmed so not sure why my therapist just randomly changed the subject. It’s like she was careless and was randomly looking out of the window and figuring out whether the rain was gonna stop me from doing it.
But I was in the midst of talking about one of my “traumatic” memories for the first time and felt very let down.
I have been let down before in therapy, but this time I just feel hurt and disappointedly my therapist apologized and said she missed the mark, made a mistake, she’s fallible etc but I just cannot forgive.
It’s like just because the person apologized doesn’t mean we can just move on and forgive no? I just feel hurt. How to forgive?