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When do you feel the most peaceful?

when i am able to achieve restorative sleep.

during my nightmare phases, it feels more restful to stay awake until the sleep deprivation hallucinations begin. those unresolved emotions catch up with me, no matter what.
 
In the midst of extreme violence.

EVERYTHING clarifies, and becomes simple/straightforward/right/true.

Peace isn’t something I seek out, unless I’m doing really badly. The complex uncertainties of life, joy, passion, excitement, & bliss are what I aim myself at. Often fall short, due to even more complicated variables effecting every moment, much less outcome. But? I still seek to find the best, strive to achieve or manage balance, & deal with the worst… until? Peace or Death are my only options.

Rest in peace, kinda trips me out.
 
when i am able to achieve restorative sleep.

during my nightmare phases, it feels more restful to stay awake until the sleep deprivation hallucinations begin. those unresolved emotions catch up with me, no matter what.
restorative sleep 👍.

For me it is being asleep. Sadly even being unconscious and put under for surgery is a break for me. I don't sleep very well.
I understand 🧚‍♂️
 
When I am completely alone at home doing what I want ,when I want, how I want without the worry of being watched or judged or having to do anything for anyone else. If I want to fart, I fart, if I want to walk around naked, I do it, If I want to eat a whole package of cookies, I do it. Complete freedom gives me the most peace.

That being said, it's also when I feel the most lonesome so it's a double edge sword.
 
When we went to see the seals, I felt instant peace the moment we got on the beach. And we had just before visited another, very beautiful beach. But this particular beach seemed to have so much extra, even before seeing any seals.
Magical place.

Also feel pretty peaceful when dissociating sometimes.
 
EVERYTHING clarifies, and becomes simple/straightforward/right/true.
yep. I cant say i ever stopped for a half second while in the midst of chaos and thought “this is peaceful” but on reflection it can feel that way. Remember that time when the next move was all that mattered and everything that happened before and everything that might come after held zero sway on the next most important event ever to have ever needed to happen?
yep. clarity.
too bad it happened when searching for victims or extricating victims or trying to save victims. and too bad that when it didnt work out well you I ate myself alive for a couple of years over it.

About a year ago i found myself thinking that getting an idiot roadrager that decided to approach me while i was photographing his license plate to throw a punch was the only thing that mattered, ever, before after forever.
Of course i was wrong, i would have lost that battle and he wouldn’t have been worth a law suit and the following events would have meant a great deal.
i beat myself up over it, i replayed the events in my head over and over, and right now, looking back, it was my most recent in a long list of moments of total clarity, standing nose to nose with a roadrager asking him over and over with total certainty and absolute confidence “how far do you want to escalate this?”
too bad so sad but a truth of this life: those of us that have had to focus with crystal clear pure minded 100% do this now or death wins clarity go forth knowing we can do it and wow- missing it deeply on not very deeply covered levels. Not something to talk about in very many places.
 

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