I Actually Had An Amazing Weekend (!!) And Drove (!!!)

[Grace11]

Perhaps it was going back to work that made me feel it was okay to actually have fun this weekend....for the first time in several months, I actually enjoyed my entire weekend. This is huge for me and I am really happy about it. Further, I enjoyed it despite it being my "bad" time - the worst PMS days.This is the first month since my accident that I did not have a fit, yell, cry, etc. during the PMS time. This might seem small to someone else, but it's almost miraculous to me. I actually went to a concert with friends and enjoyed being social.

Also - - this is really huge - - I DROVE a car for the first time in 6 months. And I did not panic.

And I had lunch with an old friend who I was very close to years ago and was clearly dealing with PTSD but I didn't know how to help her. We stopped being friends for a while for various reasons but I reached out to her recently and we immediately reconnected. She gave me some books on grief and PTSD that I will read tonight.

I feel good and I'm so grateful for that.

 

[Marie E.]

Good for you Grace!!!

 

[Grace11]

Thank you :)

 

[Brontie]

Congratulations!
May you have many, many more days like that.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

That is great! Congratulations!

 

[Tinyflame]

Grace, that's so wonderful! I am so happy for you!

 

[KP the nut]

Also - - this is really huge - - I DROVE a car for the first time in 6 months. And I did not panic.

Wow, you star, that is fantastic. Such an achievement. You deserved to have a fun weekend.

(((HUGS)))
KP

 

[The Albatross]

Great post Grace, love it. As a former active isolator, this doesn't sound small to me one bit. Congratulations!

 

[You can get through it]

Perhaps it was going back to work that made me feel it was okay to actually have fun this weekend....f

I was diagnosed with PTSD in 1997 following a bad car accident; it took around four years to get my life on track. In 2008 I was diagnosed with gullet cancer and underwent an eight and a half hour operation, so why am I telling you this? I am telling you because if there is anyone who thinks PTSD in any form is some kind of designer illness then are very miss informed. Give me all the uncertainties of cancer but never expose me again to the worst times of PTSD; at least with cancer I wanted to fight on but with PTSD I just wanted to give up on life. If it had not been for the PTSD I don’t think I would have been so strong to deal with my cancer diagnosis because once you have come through the other side of PTSD I believe you are a stronger person for the experience. One thing I have learnt about PTSD is you need time but more importantly you need to be kind to yourself and you will get through it and then you will enjoy life again.
Steve

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Steve,
-thank you for your words of hope-

 

[You can get through it]

Dear Steve,
-thank you for your words of hope-

What do we have if do not have hope to defend againt adversity? I believe hope is a powerful emotion that is equal to that of love, so keep hoping.
Steve

 

[Grace11]

Dear Steve,
-thank you for your words of hope-

YES! Thank you!