How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[YoungAndAngry]

Thanks dude :)

I'm just stressed...
turning on the game... right... now...

be back in abit :)

 

[reallydown]

I had a teacher once who used to say "life sucks...and then you die"...I've been down for some time now...sure, there are good days...but few...I seriously need some :sleep:

 

[anthony]

Good days come as we progress through getting ourselves better... keep your head up, they do come.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

"life sucks...and then you die"

Wow,
thats a shocker quote!
life can suck, and at times, it seems to only suck.
But it doesn't mean it will last forever.
We have the power to make our lifes better.
(yes I know I'm starting to sound like a preacher of a cult or something)
But I'm serious.

Think of what you would change in your life to make it not suck.
Would you change jobs? Go to school? Make more friends?
Because although we do not necesarily have the power to change our physical appearance, anyone can change the way they think and view the world.
I'm not saying it'll be easy,
it might be the hardest challenge you've ever had.

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.

"What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight;
Build anyway."

Take care

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I may have been the last one to post...
but I don't care, lol, I'm posting again anyways. :)

This morning I was woken up to do an early morning errand,
unfortunatly I had taken my sleeping meds only 3 hours prior!!!
LOL, I was babbling on and just not making sense apparantly...
after being rushed to go... I got up... and proceeded to walk directly into a coffee table,
fell over it... and by luck my boyfriend was able to catch me before I crashed to the floor.
ohhhh my, that sucked, lol, thank goodnes I was medicated to the point where I have no memory of this, just a couple minor cuts and bruised shins.

Yeah, so... rough start to my morning already.
First Doc appointment is in 2 hours...
surgeon appointment is only 4 1/2 hours away... OMG!

Just trying to breath... and not think about anything.
Just disassociate myself... I know it's a negative thing for PTSD.
But technically couldn't it be used for my advantage in situations like this?
I am most definatly NOT looking forward to the healing after sugery.
Or the surgery... or talking to the doctors... or ... nevermind....
...Disassociation is bad.... I know it... but it does make some moments a little easier

 

[Nam]

You are strong YA. Really, you are doing fine. Keep reminding yourself that you are strong, because YOU ARE!! I know that the monster anxiety feels like it's gonna jump out of you and swallow you whole, but it's not going to. It won't if you won't let it. Lean on your boyfriend, lean on your doctor, lean on your surgeon, lean on your dog. Make it through. You can do this. And, heck, post as many times as you want!!!

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Well, on the plus side I don't have to worry about healing anytime soon.
They pushed my surgery back... it's scheduled for January.

While I'm thrilled and so relieved that it isn't being done right away...
I've also been waiting over a year to be able to breath through my nose....
its depressing to have to wait again... :(
Kinda like this whole situation is just dragging out... refusing to let me try and get on with my life.

Got some pain meds added today (THANK GOD!!!!)
so that should make some of those rough days easier.

Oh yeah... and I was also confused about the whole table incident this morning.
I guess my boyfriend wasn't able to catch me before I crashed on the floor.
Again, I'm sticking with the whole "at least I don't rememebr it" theory, lol
Trying to drive standard today... ouuuuchhh! My poor ankle was just hurten!

Nam, thank you... I appreciate everything you've said...how's your day going??

 

[anthony]

Oh... watch them sleeping ones YA... bad bad juju! Sorry about the surgery... I can relate to you just wanting to get it done, especially so you have a sensory perception back again. Good that you are booked in though now... so hopefully it will remain that way. Fingers crossed...

 

[Nam]

YA, wow, January. That seems like Looooong time! Ugh, and not breathing through your nose! Sorry, to remind you....but I'm glad you went to your appointment and got it scheduled.

How am I doing? Not so hot. But, it's okay. For some reason, it's difficult for me to talk about things as they're happening, but only talk when I've got it figured out. So I just jump into other people's posts, probably avoiding, but helping others helps me.

Cat, I'm glad things are moving for you although not fast enough! You're doing great though.

 

[sonrisa]

How am I doing? Not so hot. But, it's okay. For some reason, it's difficult for me to talk about things as they're happening, but only talk when I've got it figured out. So I just jump into other people's posts, probably avoiding, but helping others helps me.

Cat, I'm glad things are moving for you although not fast enough! You're doing great though.

Many thanks for your kind words, Nam :-) Hope you feel better soon.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

January is so far away!
It's so depressing to realize that I have to wait another 6 months or so to regain "normal" breathing!!!!!

Shit.... my hands are shaking so bad now, I'm having so much problems just typing this....

Take care everyone!

 

[purdyamos]

Hello, again everyone, not moaning today! Isn't the forum getting busy. More and more new people, it's great. I've just been reading through the last few pages...

Y&A, sorry to hear about your delayed surgery, even if you were dreading it! I get disassociation too. I actually find it not unpleasant. Then I found out what it is - the brain floods the body with opioids - you're literally stoned! So when you have your surgery and they want to give you morphine you can say "It's OK, I've brought my own supply!"

Annafennutchi, I loved the news about finding your old best friend. It's so great when something happens that seems like a gift from the angels, and reminds you that life really isn't all terror, bad luck, and pain.

Monica, please don't apologise about your spelling. We have a joke in Britain that foreign english speakers speak english better than english people do. I know a Serbian woman who is the office authority on spelling!

Cat, I'm glad your journey towards proper support and treatment is going OK. Also glad to hear you get on with your social worker. Rapport is SO important! That's a glimmer of light in your life. :)

Anthony, you say Britain is a tiny country that's quick to travel across - you've obviously never experienced the British public transport system!!! (Oh there I go, whingeing pom!) It's a fine idea you have about local members hooking up, only I'm so goddamn shy... I have phone phobia. But I'll certainly P.M. the UK contingent and see where they are. I'm intrigued by their experiences of our *envy of the world* NHS :cussing:

Today I went back to my college work after a month of self-help books (I'm an art student). My project is self-portraits. The thing about these is that you're so busy concentrating on staring at the details you forget that it's you, it's just a thing you're drawing, so they always end up with this intense, stary look to them! So I did one, and boy, did it look weary and sad. Social life has tailed off again. I'm in a sort of neutral peace which is the best I can hope for, though still very isolated. I thought I'd been making a close friend on the internet, almost dared think we could be a couple. But he's gone with no explanation, which is the script I thought I'd rewritten in my life. So much for the self help books! They say having emotional baggage is the number one turn off for men, so there's not much hope for me. Oh I said no moaning! Damn! More art tomorrow. Have a good day everyone. :smile: