How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[YoungAndAngry]

the brain floods the body with opioids - you're literally stoned! So when you have your surgery and they want to give you morphine you can say "It's OK, I've brought my own supply!"

ROFL!!!!
That's funny!!!!
It would make sense though...
I don't feel anything, (even pain!) when I'm dissasociating.
Still though... I'm not gonna pass up the 'ol morphine, lol
not during surgerys at least... I don't think my opioids are enough

Felt so "off" today... just like I was lost or something.
Weird.. Must be all those darn opiods, lol, making me feel high.

Doctor/therapist appointment in 6 hours...
...it seems like I'm always going to a Doctor appointment... :(
And how the hell am I supposed to talk about my feelings... when I can't even think straight?

Dog really wants to go out for a walk...
I think I'm gonna go out for abit
see you all in the morning

 

[anthony]

Today is just another one of those days... nothing new here, I feel good, am working ok, get out and about... no signs or symptoms here! You know, after being through what I have, it kinda gets boring now not experiencing much, because I think I sort of just got used to it... like an expectation. Interesting....

 

[sonrisa]

ROFL!!!!
That's funny!!!!
It would make sense though...
I don't feel anything, (even pain!) when I'm dissasociating.
Still though... I'm not gonna pass up the 'ol morphine, lol
not during surgerys at least... I don't think my opioids are enough

Felt so "off" today... just like I was lost or something.
Weird.. Must be all those darn opiods, lol, making me feel high.

Doctor/therapist appointment in 6 hours...
...it seems like I'm always going to a Doctor appointment... :(
And how the hell am I supposed to talk about my feelings... when I can't even think straight?

Dog really wants to go out for a walk...
I think I'm gonna go out for abit
see you all in the morning

Got surgeries on the cards too. So, hope you're feeling better soon, and was right there with you when you're wondering how to talk about feelings when you can't think straight! I'd just let what needs to come out then come out, or write down what you really want to say. I'd never have explained myself properly recently without writing it down and handing it in to them!

 

[purdyamos]

Cat, I think we've been living parallel lives. I'm doing the same course as you, as well as all the other common stuff. I'm in Sheffield, by the way. You're right about men and their own hang-ups, of course. I'm just so fed up because I have never had a proper relationship, and I haven't been close to a man for ten years. Now I finally think I might be ready but there's no-one there! My course is frustrating because it's full of women I have nothing in common with. They talk about nothing except their homes and children and husbands - I have had many flashbacks and outbursts at college because that talk triggers me off really badly! I was hoping to meet some mates (including male friends, gay friends) but there's no-one on my sort of planet.

I'll send you a P.M. soon so we can compare notes without boring the fellas on the forum!

 

[anthony]

Now I finally think I might be ready but there's no-one there!

Purdy, maybe your just not looking in the right places!!! You strike me as quite a lovely person, a person who deserves happiness. All good things come to those that wait... maybe your just fussy? You will find the right person I am sure, soon enough, and especially now you have some support, you might get a bit more courage to delve into speed dating, or something interesting like that maybe.... :thumbs-up

It will come... and you do deserve it. Don't let your brain tell you otherwise please.

 

[Nam]

Hey, hey!! Count me in!! I know, I'm an American, but I love art....Got my Bachelors Degree in Fine art drawing/painting and graphic design. I paint murals residentially part-time and love to sketch people. Anthony, I think you need a subforum for just us art people!! Haha, just kiddin. This has got me thinking about the using both sides of the brain as a cure.......maybe some of us are using the right side a bit too much....something to think about.

Today for me has been awesome! Made a friend today! And getting ready for a dinner party this weekend. I love to cook, so this is supposed to be fun. I hate the cleaning part before the party however....

Hope you guys are doing ok...what a rollercoaster this week has been, and it's not even close to being over yet!

 

[Nam]

I have an idea....

Maybe we artists can post some of our work...(maybe not a self portrait...since mine kind of...uh...looks like me...) but I have other work that I can post. But mostly, cause, I would love to see what other PTSD'ers are doing artistically! A new thread anyone???

 

[anthony]

Made a friend today! And getting ready for a dinner party this weekend.

Good stuff Nam... you can never have enough people around you to chat with. Well done, and you enjoy that dinner party.

My day has been hectic... as I spent the entire day cleaning the house from top to bottom, and I mean the entire day... big house, so for one person, it is about a 10 - 12 hour job to clean from one end to the other, properly, not just a tidy, which takes like an hour or so. I am buggered from all that though...

 

[YoungAndAngry]

I bet your house is sparkling after that Anthony! lol
take it easy... I know when I start cleaning I go hard until it's done.
Then I suffer from my all-day-cleaning-spree that night and the next day. :(

Nam, I saw the art thread that was started...
Wicked idea!!! The highest art education I have is from highschool artclass. lol
but I'll still post some of my recent stuff.

Well... I sleep most of my day away yesterday.
Went to the grocery store, made some supper, then took a nap.
4 Hours later I woke up... played a game on the comp
and fell back asleep... only wake just now.

What a waste of a day, lol,
you wouldn't think grocery shopping was so exhausting.
But I find it more stressful than physical therapy!

Anyways, as I said, I just woke up...
so good day so far :)
(aside from the nightmares.... )

 

[purdyamos]

Hi again.

Y&A, we should have a sleep competition! I had my drugs raised and I just can't stay awake, but I'm still getting attacks and mood swings so fat lot of good they are. I'm still very low about this friend that's just disappeared with no explanation. Your words were kind, Anthony, but I'm realistic that most men out there run a mile if a woman has 'issues' or BAGGAGE and I look fairly haggard from my years of drug crap and screaming and crying. This friend I'd made seemed such a good mix of qualities and common ground, I just feel weary at trying to get to know anyone again. I'm tired of being thrown away. I'm sick of being abandoned, and |I seem to specialise in the ones that cut me dead, leaving me bewildered as to why it happened. :dontknow:

I'm going to PM the Brits. I have so many common points with Sonrisa it's freaky. I just need to wake up a bit...

 

[reallydown]

hi again--haven't posted in this thread in a while...i just can't seem to focus enough to even read everything people have posted...and my energy is pretty low anyway...lately i've been freaking out because of what i see going on in the news...my mind just goes "oh sh*t,, here comes wwIII"...oh and...recently i went to a production of Troilus and Cressida (thought i might be able to handle Trojan war theme) except...it turns out they set it during the American civil war...so they included gunshots...that didn't go over so well...i oculdn't run away...but the anxiety wentt hrough the roof...even thoguh i knew when the shots'd come...i jumped 3 feet into the air every time...and it set off the film in my head...just took me back...it was nasty...i am actually anxious just typing this...aarrrrrrrrggggh anyway...it's 11pm where i am and even thoguh i know i won't fall asleep anytime soon...i think i'll still make an attempt. take care everyone.

 

[purdyamos]

Hi everyone,

I woke up really whiney and wanting to be a huddly hermit, but I managed to drag myself back to life and wash and eat.

Cat you're right and very wise about the chap not being right anyway if he's going to behave like that. I've got a few art pieces uploaded which I'll transfer tonight as I'm off out today. I've only just got a digital camera so my available stock is small so far.

Reallydown that just sucks what happened at the theatre. You really can't predict where your triggers are going to appear from! It can be so awkward and embarrassing if you get set off in public too, people don't know how to react and you don't know where to put yourself. I hope you got to sleep OK.

Off now to a drop in and support place who have very nice staff, none of whom know about trauma. They tend to give inappropriate advice and don't get that certain elements of PTSD ar beyond immediate control. I can't just pep myself up if my brain sets off a hijacking. Very frustrating. Speak to you all later.