Starved myself as a teenager, then became bulimic. That was all about eating and eating anything and everything that was in the kitchen to try and stop that fear inside me, try and make it all go away. Then the binging. So yes this was definitely in response to my trauma.
Diet after diet in my 20's and 30's. Up and down in weight. But food has always been a comfort. I love food from all over the World and I love to cook it. Don't really have a sweet tooth though, like savoury. Kettle crisps/chips well don't keep them in the house! Cheese - yum. But has to be Strong English cheddar. And Chocolate of course, but dark 85% chocolate and I limit myself to a couple of pieces a day. Chocolate and hot chocolate definitely about comfort.
Now I try and eat healthy. Fear of diabetes, and heart disease. I am seriously overweight as I do over eat portion sizes. But at least I am no longer obese. I think that I had been overeating for a long time and not realising it because of my life with my ex H and how depressed I was. As soon as I woke up to this I seem to start eating less and lost weight.
Still skip meals though, Breakfast is almost impossible for me, makes me ill if I eat early in the morning. Can last till lunch or longer not eating. Just forget to eat sometimes when I am down. Also find with IBS eating breakfast and travelling would fuel the IBS.
Yes, so food, definitely a mixed bag there. On the whole a comfort thing, but the fear of being fat, still led to me being fat??????
