Analogy: My Ptsd Feels Like...

[m3s4]

My Ptsd feels like: everyone and everything in life is passing me by at light speed, while I'm stuck walking in circles inside of a revolving door that never stops spinning; like I'm a ghost in my own life - so detached and cut-off that I'm haunting my own hopes, dreams, ambitions and attempts at progressing in life. I feel like everyday I'm trapped with the events that have married me to my Ptsd and there's no escaping the lifeless, numbing void it's left - forever changing my identity to the point I no longer know who I am, or who I used to be.

 

[Sandra]

Big hugs for M3S4. And I know where you are coming from.

 

[maddog]

Right now it feels like all that remains of me, as though everything else, all of the good and functional and real and normal parts, have died and gone away. This is all that's left now.

Maddog

 

[KP the nut]

Like I will never be free of it

 

[AngelaMarie]

Like a strong storm. I have to hang on because the wind is so strong I could get blown away, get lost and not find my way back.

 

[JD99501]

My PTSD feels like I have never slept. My hands and feet are bound. I am on my knees and a very large masked man is beating me with a steele whip. At the same time I have a gaunt hungry wolf walking around me waiting for me to not pay attention.

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[lifeguard17]

My PTSD feels like ... I'm in the sea. Sometimes it's calmer, and I can tread water and shout for help, attract attention from the right people and know who to avoid. Sometimes like now, it's rough waters, waves are breaking over my head and I can't catch a full lungful of air. Instead of (as I teach my swimming classes) having my ears out of the water to keep warm and alert, my head is right back, just my nose out of the water desperately trying to breathe, and all I can see are the bad memories, the things I don't want to remember, and the people who don't need to know how badly I'm doing.

I feel like I'm fighting a losing war, every day being a battle I never win because the next day I have to do it all again.

 

[KP the nut]

My PTSD feels like it is regaining control

 

[pyrrhic]

Like I'm being suffocated slowly, with a pillow and I am struggling to stay alive and to keep breathing.

 

[Sterre]

....everyone and everything in life is passing me by at light speed, while I'm stuck walking in circles inside of a revolving door that never stops spinning; like I'm a ghost in my own life - so detached and cut-off that I'm haunting my own hopes, dreams, ambitions and attempts at progressing in life. .

Like that!

 

[Queen Boudica]

I am a child who has woken up to an adult alien World. I feel strange and out of place and so overwhelmed by everything. I don't know how to be or what to say. I try to disguise myself as one of the alien adults but I just don't have enough skills, I am a child, it is too much. But I know if I am caught out I will be taken away and assimulated into an emotionless alien adult.

It is like the film "Invasion of the body snatchers" the alien adults know there is something different about me and, if I make the slightest mistake and betray my true self, they start making that horrible shrieking alien noise and summoning all the other aliens to get me and take me away. So I have to run before they get me, but there is nowhere to run to, the whole World is full of aliens. There is no-one like me to relate to, only on the internet, on this forum. I can't trust anyone else.

 

[KP the nut]

My PTSD feels like I will never let it win