Your Turning Point In Seeking Healing

[sunshineontheway]

The turning point is I was nearly 'killed' by PTSD.Prior to that,I didn't pay much attention to the negative symtom and horrible feeling all derived from PTSD and I was misdiagonosed as Depression & Anxiety.I think if I bear them or overtake them, everything would be fine again and time would heal me. But facts proved how foolish I was to underestimate its power...

After I know the power of PTSD, I realized I was fundamentally trapped in a storm in my life --as PTSD is severe spiritial and mindful illness...I began to find related information from internet and try to find any useful books in library...To my surprise, the method of psychoanalysis and retrospecting over my previous experience helps a lot in reducing negative and unpleasant symtoms, such as anxiety, panic，sense of suppression in the chest,dizzy...But it really takes a lot of time....

 

[Tanishq]

But facts proved how foolish I was to underestimate its power...

Sunshine, I can see there you are at healing. Your process has begun. I am proud of you friend, that now you have shared the valuable another lesson. never underestimate anything in this world. wow.

:hug:

 

[sunshineontheway]

Sunshine, I can see there you are at healing. Your process has begun... this world. wow.
:hug:

Hi,Jaret, thanks for the support :laugh:
It seems to a lot of time, during the processing of my trauma, many painful and torturing feeling spurt out...It takes lots of time to identify and understand the meaning of them....Hardwork for me...Something like cleaning many ditches which has been blocked for years...:inpain:

It's pretty unlucky to be misdiagonosed and when I was in my university, I didn't pay attention to it, I still stick to academic issues....I do think that I missed the best opportunity of my healing....:chicken:

 

[Tanishq]

It's pretty unlucky to be misdiagonosed and when I was in my university, I didn't pay attention to it, I still stick to academic issues....I do think that I missed the best opportunity of my healing....:chicken:

Please don't do that. Everyone makes a mistake. I did miss and I repented bit for not being careful last year. I had the best chance to get full healing. But there was something that kept me doubting my own intuition and couldn't pay attention properly. I was still being hard. It is just this year January 2012, where I stopped being so hard on me.

Last year after finishing degree program. I was very tired. So I paid attention to body. Mine sleeping patterns were changed. I was sleeping during whole day. Even I was taking bath after taking lunch first. It was uncontrollable. Somehow I regained control over my body. I needed lot of physical and emotional rest. I was giving physical rest to myself. but couldn't understand and had no idea how to give myself emotional break.

Parents keep saying, study hard. Next year you'll have to give entrance exam. You have very less time. You are wasting your time. I kept myself in emotional crisis. That did and is still doing lot of damage. I have realized it is best not to beat up myself. I missed, that is fine. May be there is some reason behind this. Yes, I had no help either.

You can look upto things you were misdiagnosed. you can check that did you respond to it and did it create any new trouble for you? My best friend says, time is your friend. It took one month to understand this quote from her. We all have time to heal.

:)

 

[sunshineontheway]

Last year after finishing degree program..But couldn't understand and had no idea how to give myself emotional break.

Here,you talked about career and health....I think being with life or career has and would take a lot of attention and energy which could have been paid to taking care of and having a closer look at ourselves ...yes, it's not easy for you, I can understand ...

To emotion problem, did you find a therapist or the similar...To me, when I was a university student, very few people know PTSD and not to say the related therapist(Moreover, I have not enough money to see the doctors)...I don't know the situation in your country, if no related resources, I think some other substitutable ways should try to be reached, like some innovative methods or special idea introduced by books, forums (yes, this forum is one of them;) ),etc....

 

[Tanishq]

Moreover, I have not enough money to see the doctors

I have the same reason. I can't see psychologists here and we don't have therapists available here. They are different kind of therapists. but I need money though. Psychologists are expensive though.

This forum is big source of help right now. :)

Today I will focus on healing meditation.

 

[sunshineontheway]

I have the same reason...Psychologists are expensive though.

Jaret, in my place, things are similar, for a same mental illness, usually 2 medical resources could be reached, one is therapist in hospital ,who would are inclined to medication, the other is psychologist in their worshop,who apply to mental analysis, but charges are very expensive and counted by hour...

I can say neither of above 2 sources are cheap, moreover, in my place and country, the development of mental trearment is relatively backward .We just have subdivision to Depression and Anxiety, but none to PTSD, so we don't have any PTSD therapist....For psychologist, they're somewhat motley group, most of them just passed the examination ( standers are not restricted to a professional onehere, you can be psychologist once you passed the examination), but have not much successful experience for practice.

 

[Tanishq]

For psychologist, they're somewhat motley group, most of them just passed the examination ( standers are not restricted to a professional onehere, you can be psychologist once you passed the examination), but have not much successful experience for practice.

Yes, we sufferers have to be careful. We have to be more careful while choosing therapist or psychologists. Majority of this world don't care about giving support to others.

I am thinking those who are writing self help books, such as life after trauma. They are great human beings. At least you can make some savings, buy it when you have money and then start learning. You will get to know some true facts that how difficult it is, what you are dealing with and how it can be dealt.

I hear you for not getting proper help.

 

[sunshineontheway]

I am thinking those who are writing self help books, such as life after trauma. They are great human beings.....

Yes, they're those with love heart and care about their patience....I remember I was so delighted when their methods works on me!!!! Prior to that, I never think I could make any progress to my illness.As I used to be treated badly and mis-guided by some not professional psychologist and getting misdiagonosed by therapist in hospital and waste lots of money on medicines though I never take them and put them aside.....I used to think I will continue this poor life in a dark corner until the end and not any strength to stand up by myself, not even to struggle and fight with my illness!!!

You will get to know some true facts that how difficult it is, what you are dealing with and how it can be dealt.

Yes, even you got some useful guidelines, it's still difficult....Because PTSD is a severe illness and it requires lots of strength, energy, patience,time and love and reconciliate to ourselves.... That's why I said processing my trauma is like a cleaning ditches which have been blocked by years.....But of course, this is just my own opinion....

Nowadays, I found the right way for healing introduced by books, but it would cost lot of my time....to me, only processing traumatic information can help me to eradicate the negative loops and fearness......I don't know whether it's due to severity of my trauma...:confused:

 

[Tanishq]

As I used to be treated badly and mis-guided by some not professional psychologist and getting misdiagonosed by therapist in hospital and waste lots of money on medicines though I never take them and put them aside

I have done this many times. For example, if I am ill and go to doctor because my parents wanted me to go. They would tell me to medications on time. I keep feeling I don't need this medications. I need something relief with my emotions. most of the times I wasn't able to let out my emotions.

Sunshine, you put them aside because you thought you are being misdiagnosed, right? Yes, those medicines may react badly. It may create other problems with your physical body and we may not know what to do.

I agree with you and it is very necessary thing to get rest during any kind of illness. This is why taking care of trauma is very hard thing. most people don't understand sufferer needs some rest and healing. Suffered does need lots of time to look after their thought patterns. Here on this forums lots of people say, it will take at least 2-3 years to process trauma therapy or any kind effective help regarding it. Most important constant flow of good treatment coupled with good communication.

Sunshine, hang in there. We all make it out. You're not alone. :)

 

[sunshineontheway]

I need something relief with my emotions. most of the times I wasn't able to let out my emotions.

Many self-help goods said letting out original emotion is fundamental for healing, you let them out and release them, they would gradually reduce and disappear, then peace would come.....Try some of the methods you think good....Sometimes not every methods would be suitable for your kind of PTSD, so it would need to spend some time to develop your own therapy plan....

Sunshine, you put them aside because you thought you are being misdiagnosed, right? Yes, those medicines may react badly. ..

Yes,medicine react badly on me...I can't think and feel numb all the time, things is like a swing between of being slow in reaction (if take the medicine) and fluctuating to even a minor pressure (non medication).....I am afraid of becoming a silly or foolish girl with the placebo, so I stop it though my parents strongly voted against...All this got more bright and clear after I got the self-help books...

I agree with you and it is very necessary thing to get rest during any kind of illness. This is why taking care of trauma is very hard thing...You're not alone. :)

Yes, self-analysis and trauma processing takes lot of mental strength and time...I feel that situation of peple on the way of healing is like swimming across the English Channel， even you know how to swim and save your energy, but such a far-away distance would be sufficient enough to drain out one's patience and energy.....So it's better and easier to make it as a plan with many steps. For every step, adjust ourselves to our pace, needs so as to continue the long way, though long, but reachable.....:inlove:

 

[Tanishq]

Many self-help goods said letting out original emotion is fundamental for healing, you let them out and release them, they would gradually reduce and disappear, then peace would come

This is nice reminder for me. :)

I am afraid of becoming a silly or foolish girl with the placebo

Please, Don't be afraid of anything. You are already good woman and you're getting there. I remembered something. Knowledge has power to tear illusions. You please carry on. Did you mean your parents force you to take them?

I feel that situation of peple on the way of healing is like swimming across the English Channel， even you know how to swim and save your energy... needs so as to continue the long way, though long, but reachable.....:inlove:

Such a lovely poetic way to write things about healing from you poetic sunshine. Love this quote. :)

It sounds this forum has been helpful and uplifting for you. :happy: