I realize I will never really understand what happened and that everyone is different but I was wondering if what happened with my boyfriend more about his guilt rather than anything else.
Not to give out too many details, he got a job offer last Wednesday, hes been out of work since August. He was really excited. then found out Thursday that he may have a health issue that would prevent him from taking the job. I know now, I should have let him be. I didnt. We talked about the issue, disagreed on the options. I texted my sister, asking her about the issue because she also has this health issue (not the PTSD). Well, that set him off. He got mad, stopped talking to me, said I betrayed his trust, invaded his privacy.I kept apologizing. I apologized over and over. He went to bed, laid down on top of the blankets and fell asleep. I covered him up later and also went to sleep. He woke up at 2 am, said he had to go print something at his dad's and he'd see me later that night. Thats when he never came home, thats when he decided he's no good for anyone.
I keep wondering if he realized he lashed out at me and that his reaction was extreme and he feels guilty for making me feel like a terrible person, thus making him a bad person for doing that to me? I only wonder this because after a woman on facebook tried starting trouble with me after we had this incident, she said she cheated on me with her, she sent me a screenshot that proved nothing, he got very angry..at her. He threatened her, said he'd break her kneecaps if she didn't leave me alone, said that neither he nor I needed this right now from her.
Why be so protective of me, if he isn't even with me anymore? Wouldn't that have given him the easy out? I had told him the night before that I wished he had cheated so I could hate him and move on. It would have been so simple to lie and say he was with her, rather than be so protective of me. After that he deleted and block her on Facebook.
Not to give out too many details, he got a job offer last Wednesday, hes been out of work since August. He was really excited. then found out Thursday that he may have a health issue that would prevent him from taking the job. I know now, I should have let him be. I didnt. We talked about the issue, disagreed on the options. I texted my sister, asking her about the issue because she also has this health issue (not the PTSD). Well, that set him off. He got mad, stopped talking to me, said I betrayed his trust, invaded his privacy.I kept apologizing. I apologized over and over. He went to bed, laid down on top of the blankets and fell asleep. I covered him up later and also went to sleep. He woke up at 2 am, said he had to go print something at his dad's and he'd see me later that night. Thats when he never came home, thats when he decided he's no good for anyone.
I keep wondering if he realized he lashed out at me and that his reaction was extreme and he feels guilty for making me feel like a terrible person, thus making him a bad person for doing that to me? I only wonder this because after a woman on facebook tried starting trouble with me after we had this incident, she said she cheated on me with her, she sent me a screenshot that proved nothing, he got very angry..at her. He threatened her, said he'd break her kneecaps if she didn't leave me alone, said that neither he nor I needed this right now from her.
Why be so protective of me, if he isn't even with me anymore? Wouldn't that have given him the easy out? I had told him the night before that I wished he had cheated so I could hate him and move on. It would have been so simple to lie and say he was with her, rather than be so protective of me. After that he deleted and block her on Facebook.
