I Realize That I

[BlackbirdSinging]

I think I realize that part of the reason I feel so angry is that I feel angry that no one was there for me the entire time I kept my secrets and went through decades of pain.

I realize that people weren't there for me because they couldn't be because I didn't tell.

I realize that I just might have some anger valid or not and some guilt for feeling angry that the people around me missed every sign no matter how hard I tried to hide what I was going through.

 

[Abstract]

I realise why I have been in a weird state recently (glad I am feeling more me now). I have no idea of the the why or what to do about it. I realise that there are aspects of the working of my brain that are still a total mystery to me.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize that I sabotage my weight loss, among other things. I am at the point where I'm seeing improvement and, therefore, am at the point where I sabotage things. I have to learn to not do this. I realize I am not protecting myself by doing this. It does not keep me safer. I realize that I will have to fight, and push, beyond this moment. I have to realize that I am worth it.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I struggle with the distorted thinking pattern of taking things personally more than I thought I did.

I realize that staying stuck doesn't just keep me stuck and keep me hurting it also keeps the people who care about me and who are supporting me stuck and hurting too.

I realize that I must find a way to be courteous to myself and to those who support me by not dragging them through my sh*t just because it's there.

I realize that I'm not alone. Not only are there other sufferers but there are people who are supporting me that are going through this too.

I realize that I've been selfish and wrong to think that I'm going through this alone.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize it's so good and healthy that everyone here has found so many realizations and many feel better or stronger for them. :) :tup: :hug:

I realize I suppose I wasn't as responsible and to blame for as many things or to the extent I thought I was.

I realize the feeling of (my) 'contagion' is an accurate recognition of the impact of some things I say or do or reveal or fear to say, even if they are influenced by ptsd.

I realize I am tired, anxious, stressed.

 

[Tinyflame]

I guess I realize some things I wasn't responsible for at all. :confused:

 

[Lionheart]

I realize that I can't care for my younger brother the way he needs to be taken care of, but I still feel a lot of guilt and sadness over it. (He has schizophrenia and lives out of town in an assisted living facility).

 

[Abstract]

realize some things I wasn't responsible for at all.

I realize that staying stuck doesn't just keep me stuck and keep me hurting it also keeps the people who care about me and who are supporting me stuck and hurting too.

Wow, wow. Those are amazing and brave realisations for both of you.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thanks @Abstract , always for your help and encouragement. :hug:

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize that my drinking a small mountain dew or glass of wine takes away from the calories I can eat in my diet. Very disturbing. Makes having them a lot less more fun.

 

[Madhather]

I realize I can not handle confrontation are aggressive people. I realize I need to work on myself and allow other's to fight their of battles. I realize I need to stop taking everything so personally. I realize I have a lot of work to do.

 

[macca]

I realise that the invalidation I experienced is just rife in my family - I realise that my father's depression after aggressive cancer treatment is now being invalidated by the rest of my family, even though they don't mean to do it.