Samantha - I want to say that I admire your courage. I think I would probably fall in a heap if that happened to me. I hate to imagine how you might be feeling.
I don't know if it was courage, so much as I was two seconds away from "falling in a heap" and was desperate. More so because of those who have reached out to me, and I didn't want them to feel betrayed. I was shaking, my heart rate was through the rough, I was balling. I was one step away from a complete mental breakdown.
Bedbug, it is more polished. I've written, and rewritten, it several times throughout the last couple years. I never shared it under my own name, but my name actually is Samantha. I will be making a post today actually explaining me. Which is going to be difficult. It is one thing to post on here under your fist name that millions have, it is completely different to tell people who you are. I feel this is necessary to help anyone who has any misunderstandings.
No more copy/paste. PTSD forum now owns those words. Just FYI.
Solara...there are no more things posted on the internet. That was the only piece I have ever even tried to share, it did not go far, as you can see only one person ever commented. Even so, the first time I shared it, I was not ready. It triggered me terribly. I was very afraid to share it on here and that's where the apprehension was that I showed in my post. If I want to post my other stories in the way I already have them written, I will. I do realize that means I put myself open to people stealing my work, and that nothing on the internet is private or any longer "really" owned by the person who posts it. I still believe it is my right to decide. This forum can own the words, either way it is my life and I will post about it how I want and how I feel will best help me heal. They can own the words, but my story can be told in different words, and they will never own my story.
