Can't Seem To Put A Sentence Together

[shimmerz]

I was off the board last week as I was processing some pretty serious stuff. I couldn't read a post if my life had depended on it. So frustrating. Where did my brain go?

I slowly started to post again this week but in looking back on them I notice I was making typos, my sentences were missing words or just were not strung well together at all. I felt like I was coming around and then noticed another post just today that is not quite right. I feel like I don't want to read over my posts as it is ridiculous! Yes, I did get past grade 4 for crying out loud!

Can anyone else relate to this? Do they find they come and go at times with their literacy skills?

 

[Echo]

Yes, I can. :( I guess it is just another sign that our brains are overloaded. Our language centres don't work as well when we are in fight/flight/freeze, etc. I find it so hard to write all day, as my work requires, when I'm like this. Some days I can't even start. Often my fingers are so stiff they won't comply, and often I have to go over the same passage over and over again just to get the spelling right - and frustratingly everything then has to be edited (viciously) on a day when I've got myself together a bit more. I also find I struggle a great deal to read on those days, and if I am forced to, I end up reading a sentence repeatedly and still not understanding or retaining it. (I've just had to edit this for lots of typos - sigh! You are not alone.) :eek:

 

[shimmerz]

Hey! Beautiful white fluffy flower chick! @ Echo, I thank you for sharing your experience with this. I find it so frustrating! It is good practice typing on the board but lets me see with blaring clarity that it takes time to recover from something.

Our language centres don't work as well when we are in fight/flight/freeze,

I was thinking I was in regression mode but this makes perfect sense to me. Thank you so much for your input and I can appreciate the frustration you must feel while under pressure to perform.

 

[ghotiff]

I too have this difficulty.

I think of it as all my energy/mental-resources are being taken up by keeping me in an okay(ish) state. So, there just isn't any spare resources available to read properly or write properly. Unfortunately (since I've found this forum) these are the times that I feel the greatest need to connect here. I worry about miss-understanding other peoples posts when I'm in this mode, and I worry about coming across differently than I intend.

Today is again one of those days, so hope this makes sense.

 

[LilBit]

Some of my friends/coworkers in particular are bad for that too!! And their problem is shift work mixed with school/spouse/children underfoot and acting out!! They are tired, busy, distracted, and preoccupied. Their communication is on the fly in the middle of whatever else they are doing, so sometimes it can be disjointed.

 

[shimmerz]

@ghotiff that is my state right now. I am posting but trying to just accept that I am doing the best I can. It is just so darned frustrating to me as I know I can do better. I guess being gentle on myself (which is much harder than applying the bullwhip to myself it seems) is my lesson in this. So sorry your day is 'one of those'.

@LilBit yes, I suppose a bunch of different things can lead to this. I just happen to know that I went through a hell of a week processing and am putting it down to that but you make a very good point in looking at other stressors as well and not necessarily assigning it to one cause. Thank you.

 

[Echo]

... and don't mention when hormones get in the way .... It's fun being a multi-tasking woman with PTSD, PMS/perimenopausal symptoms, ain't it?

 

[laurelheorot]

Can anyone else relate to this? Do they find they come and go at times with their literacy skills?

Yes, this happens to me all the time. I find that it becomes a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy: writing or reading can be the most helpful tools for me to overcome my symptoms, but often literacy is the first thing to go when I am under increased stress. It's so frustrating!

If it makes you feel any better @shimmerz , you posted a very eloquent post to me earlier tonight and I understood it perfectly! Hope things are going okay. Oh, and I love your avatar! :)

 

[shimmerz]

Ahhh, ty @laurelheorot . I have to say I feel like it is my literate twin who must have written that post. Are you sure it was me???? ;)

I must admit it is fascinating watching my brain try to reassemble itself after one of my 'beautiful disasters'. I just hope while I am processing the big stuff that I come out of it a little more healed rather than shattered into itty bitty pieces one of these days. I feel like I am walking a very fine line sometimes.

Thanks for your encouragement and kind words!

 

[laurelheorot]

Ahhh, ty @laurelheorot . I have to say I feel like it is my literate twin who must have written that post. Are you sure it was me????

Ahhh the old literate twin...I have one of them! Often, I'll look at journal entries and go "hmm...that appears to be my handwriting...I did that? Don't believe you. Go away. Someone obviously hijacked my body because I couldn't even identify what a tree was on that day."

I must admit it is fascinating watching my brain try to reassemble itself after one of my 'beautiful disasters'

I agree, it is fascinating. The mind is a strange, wonderful beast. Hope yours is treating you a bit more kindly.

 

[ghotiff]

my handwriting...I did that?

On the handwriting thing....I read how when you connect to different parts of your feelings that your handwriting changes. I looked back at (old and recent) diaries and can see a really different handwriting. Its really weird.

 

[shimmerz]

hmm...that appears to be my handwriting...I did that? Don't believe you. Go away. Someone obviously hijacked my body because I couldn't even identify what a tree was on that day.

This is great! Love the humour in it and boy oh boy can I relate! I laughed out loud when I read this. Thanks for making my day @laurelheorot ! Thank you for your kind wishes and I send them back to you as well!

I read how when you connect to different parts of your feelings that your handwriting changes.

I have seen this in myself as well. I haven't looked it up or asked anyone about it but I have to say that you reminded me of something I have wondered about myself @ghotiff . It is fascinating because I know whether I am in a good state or not when I write something. THIS is why I type most things. What you can't see can't hurt you????? Nope it's the other way around. Damn! :)